So right now I am sitting on the couch with Tara and I'm about to tell her I'm leaving for tour.
J: "Tara baby?"
T: "Yea Daddy?"
J: "Uh Daddy has to go away for a while."
J: "I have to go on tour Hun."
T: "TOUR!? YES!!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO GO!!"
I looked down sadly.
J: "Baby, you can't come."
J: "You need to stay her a keep doing therapy."
T: "But, but I'll miss you!"
Tara started to cry. I pulled her little body into my chest so I could comfort her.
J: "Princess you can come and visit and I'll have breaks so I can see you."
T: "It's not the same!"
J: "We can skype and Facetime."
J: "Princess I'm sorry."
T: "I HATE YOU!"
J: "Tara it's for the best!" I said raising my voice.
Tara then pushed me away and ran up the stairs.
It's been 20 minutes and I'm trying to get Tara to come out of her room. I have to leave in 5 minutes to go to the bus that is waiting right outside of my door.
J: "Tara honey you need to come out. I don't wanna leave without saying goodbye."
Tara was silent.
Alfredo: "Bro come on, we gotta go!"
J: "I can't leave without saying goodbye!"
Alfredo: "Dude where going to be late!"
J: "Fine, I'm coming."
I then walked away from my little girls room and went to the bus. I looked back at the house. I looked up to Tara's room and saw her standing there with tears rolling down her cheeks. I blew her a kiss and she closed the curtain to the window. I sighed heavily and walked to the bus.
As soon as I got on the bus I went to my room and started to cry. How could I just leave her? Why couldn't I take her with me? I kept asking myself questions. I then fell asleep.
(3 weeks later)
I was getting ready to go on stage when I got a call from Ariana.
J: "Hey baby."
A: "Justin, I have to tell you something."
J:"What is it?"
A: "I cheated, I cheated on you Justin. I'm so very sorry."
J: "What? Why? With who?"
A: "I cheated. I'm sorry, if I could I would take it back."
J: "No you woundn't, your not sorry."
A: "I know, Justin I love someone else."
J: "Who is he?"
A: "Nathan, I love him, not you. Justin I don't think I ever really loved you."
J: "I see, I hope you have a happy life with Nathan."
I then hung up the phone and went on stage. You know gotta fake that smile.
(After the Show)
After the show I went into a room and started to cry. I lost Ariana. She was never mine. And Tara. I haven't spoken to Tara in 3 weeks. I'm such a bad father. I grabbed a paper and pen and started to write.
'Oh-oh, just as sure as the stars in the sky
I need you to show me the light
Not just for the meanwhile, for a long long time, better believe it'