When It All Ends (COMPLETED)

Chapter 25

#WIAE Chapter 25

My head felt like it was being pounded by a thousand hammer. I was still silently cursing Night as I tried to get my limbs disentangled from Avo's. I avoided staring at his sleeping facade. I felt guilty for sleeping with him. Something inside me was breaking but I didn't have time for feelings. Palagi kong inaalala lahat ng sinasabi nila sa akin. Trust no one. I trusted no one... not even myself. Most specially when my own feelings were betraying me.

Last night was something I wanted to remember and forget... but as much as I tried to forget it, everything was already buried in the deepest parts of my mind. Alam ko na hindi ko na matatakasan iyon... not even when go far away from this horrid place.

Avo quietly stirred.

"I'm sorry," I whispered against his sleeping face. I tried to caress his face, but I reprimanded myself even before I could. I should remember what I came here for. Agad akong tumayo at tahimik na nagsimulang maghanap ng kahit na ano... I just needed something, anything that could give me a clue.

Nagsimula akong tignan ang mga drawers ni Avo pero wala akong nakitang kakaiba. There were pictures there, but nothing was giving me anything. Ilang beses na akong nakapasok sa kwarto ni Avo dati pero hindi ko binigyang pansin ang mga nakikita ko dati... I wasn't curious before. I didn't have any agenda before. But now that I was seeing it in a different light, I couldn't help but wonder.

It felt different. Everything in this room felt detached from the Avo I knew.

Isa-isa kong tinignan iyong mga litrato na nakalagay sa isang photo album na nasa pinaka-ibaba ng drawer. There were pictures of Ella and Avo. They looked so happy... and it was giving me a strange feeling. Something was wrong.

"Who are you..." I mumbled as I stared at the picture. It didn't feel like the Avo I knew. Tama kaya si Lorenzo? Iba nga ba ang bumalik na Avo? Pero kung ganoon, sino ang kasama ni Oli? At ano ang nangyari sa kanya?

I was about to scan the remaining pictures when I heard Avo calling my name. I froze on the spot.

"Boe..." he called.

Kinalma ko ang sarili ko at mabilis na itinago ang photo album sa ilalim. I turned around and faced him. And awkwardly smiled.

"What are you doing?" he asked.

"I... was looking for my shirt," I lied. Sobrang lakas ng kabog ng dibdib ko. I was still clutching the linen against my naked body. Sa sobrang pagmamadali ko kanina na makapaghanap ng ebidensya ay nalimutan kong magbihis agad.

Avo motioned for me to go back to the bed. I gave in. He looked too fúcking good in the morning. I wanted to slap myself for thinking this way. He's the enemy, but how could I defeat the enemy when he looked like this in the morning?! Damn Night! Kasalanan niya ang lahat ng 'to!

"It's still early. Let's sleep some more," he mumbled as he nuzzled my neck.

I closed my eyes as the sensation settled in. 'Don't you dare, Estrella! He's the enemy!' I reminded myself.

"It's already 9 am," I replied as I bit my lower lip to stop myself from making any noise that might just encourage him to continue what he was doing.

"I don't care," he answered and pulled me back to bed with him. "We barely slept a wink. Let's sleep some more."

And I frigging couldn't do anything because he placed his arms on my stomach and entangled his legs against mine.

"Good night," he said as he snuggled against me.

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A few hours later, I finally convinced Avo to let me go. Not after sleeping with him again. Na gusto kong sabunutan ang sarili ko. I kept on convincing myself that I shouldn't but every time he touched me, I just couldn't resist.