Once Again •JIKOOK•

Chapter 9: Forgetting You

PLEASE LISTEN TO "FORGETTING YOU BY DAVICHI" WHILE READING THIS CHAPTER

*Jungkook's POV*

Looking at the clear sky from our supposed to be shared room's window.. thinking about what jimin hyung said breaks my heart even more.

My first heartbreak was when he decided to share a room with hobi hyung.

It looks like my heart breaks everyday.

"All I can do right now is to stay away from him, stop making an effort for him, stop my love for him and lastly let go of him even if it kills me." -Jimin hyung

You're right Jimin hyung, you have to let go of me.

I wish I can turn back the time but I can't.

Even when I try to get far away
The memories are asking us

tears starting to form in my eyes, tears that always falls everynight, tears that is full sadness,guilts,regrets,heartbreaks and untold feelings that I always keep.

Loving you
Is such a painful thing
Feelings that can’t be emptied
Is such a sad thing

"I'm sorry I love you" I whispered

Some day
I hope I can love you all I want

*Knock knock*

I quickly wiped my tears and stands up to open the door

It's Jin hyung

"Hyung why?" -I asked trying to speak in my normal voice

"Are you crying?" -He asked back

"No.No I'm not" -I said and fake smiled

"Oh, okay. Dinner is ready" -He said and leave 

I think he is mad at me after what Jimin hyung said. Jin hyung already knows about us.

/deep sighed/

I closed my room and walked in our dining table where all of my hyungs are already there eating.

I sat beside Jin hyung and Namjoon hyung.

I don't have that much appetite to eat so I only put a little amount of rice and soup.

"Yah, Jungkook are you starving yourself?" -Namjoon hyung said as he pointed at my plate

"It's just I don't have an appetite to eat" -I said in low voice enough for him and Jin hyung to heard

"Okay, eat your food now and take a rest, You must be tired" -Yoongi hyung said

I nodded and eat my food quickly

After eating, I went to my room and lay down on my bed

missing you even though we are on the same dorm..

Does the pain I gave you before are  starting to fade?

You know what hyung

Hiding my feelings for you
Is such a hard thing

It’s me turning around and crying.

I decided to write again in my diary, a place where my feelings are kept. 

|11-08-16|
Each day there will be another pain in my heart everytime I see you especially when you're with jhope hyung. I know I said to myself that I will keep my feelings for you since I'm already late to realize it.  I always cry when I'm alone by just thinking about you.Your smiles and laughs that are always in my mind.