i sat next to safaree, crying still. we were there for wht seemed like forever before i could see kae. i walked in and she looked just like death. I couldnt help but cry. I kissed her forhead, and said my goodbyes. I knew that this would be the day i lost my baby girl, Lanae couldnt bear it. she was falling out. i had to take her and talk to her so she qould calm down.
"Nae, baby its ok"
"No, no, no,no . why did God do this to us ? yo ?if he loves us so much y he keep taking my fam man?" she said in a VERY stong new york accent.
"Babe, dont question God, everythign he does, is for the best. no matter what."
"Ok, wheres michie? she aint called or nothnin?"
"Ill call he-" i got cut off by my phone ringing.
Michie- *Sniff * Nicki ?
N- Yes ? where are you baby girl? and whos number is this ?
M- Nic im in jail.
N- wtf ? why ?
M- i was selling weed. and smokin,, and they saw me and some dudes on the corner and checked us.
N- Michie wtf would u do some shit like that ?
M- I dont know im sorry nicki. wheres nae ?
N- She not doin too good with kae in the hospital. Look im very dissapointed in you. ima send faree to come get u, but u are soo in trouble.
M- ok, im sorry.
N- Yea *Hangs up *
i walked back in the room with nae and whispered in farees ear. he nodded and got up to go get mich. I sat down with my head down thinking about what i would do with out kae kae.
The nurse walked in and looked at me.
"I- uhm -i -i "
"Im sorry ms maraj.."
"What do u mean ? what are u saying ?"
i just sat there and shook my head. we just sat there and sat there and sat there. people trrying to comfort me but i didnt want it. I just sat there and held lanae close to my chest, promising i would NEVER let her go.
Safaree walked in with mich and someone told them the news , he walked over to me and nae and held us. Pretty soon we had to leave, so everyone went home. Mich and nae went upstairs and i just sat on the couch with safaree. "U ok nicki ? u havent talked since we left the hospital ?"
"I dont know .."
"Want something to eat ?"
"NO. , im sorry. i -i just . i just need some time alone. I love you , thank u for being ther." i kissed his lips and walked to the studio, put on some beats and just listened to some songs. i sat on the couch and thought about my baby. why did this happen to me ? me of alllll peopl ?. i still have to tell faree im pregnant. or maybe not.
i grabbed my keys and walked out of the door. safaree called me
S-Where u goin ? u ok ?