"mom..where are you going?" tanong ni Dino sakin.
"I'm going out...so, be a big brother to you sister okey? always remind her about things..." sagot ko sknya habang inaayos ang buhok ko.
"but, mom...you're always out..." reklamo niya sakin..
yes..that's true...lagi akong wala sa bahay last week...busy ako sa trabaho...and pag uwi ko, dadaan ako sa apartment ni Richard to help him with packing up things..and pag dating ko, patulog na o matutulog na yung dalwa...
Richard and I sleep in their room every night naman...to catch up with the kids...
pero iba ngayon ang pupuntahan ko...
Gello just texted me na makikipag kita na siya sakin...
that made my heart jumps! maybe Richard was right...maybe Gello really loves our kids...
I smiled with that idea..
"mom..your smilling." excited na sabi ni Ria-Nie sakin.
I kissed her cheeks, "because mom is happy...be a good girl okey..." sabi ko sknya.
nandun din si Sera para makipag laro sa mga anak ko...at para bantayan sila, wala kasi si mommy umuwi siya sa bahay ng kapatid niya to have a quality time with them...kaya tatlo lang kami dito sa bahay, and everytime na kailangan ko ng mag babantay sa mga anak ko, Sera and Mark was always there.
dumating ako sa restaurant na pag tatagpuan namin...
"for how many ma'am?" tanong nung waiter sakin.
"I have company...any reservation for Mr. Valera?" tanong ko.
"yes ma'am follow me, Mr. Valera is waiting for you." sabi niya saka nag lakad na para ituro yung table ni Gello...
naka talikod siya sa pinang galingan ko...
the same feeling is enveloping me...
todo ang ngiti ko ng umupo ako sa harap niya...but it quickly fades ng tiningnan niya akong walang reaction...
tahimik ko lang siyang pinag masdan...
"can I get any drink for you?" tanong nung waiter.
"I'll have water." sagot ko.
"water please." sabi niya rin at umalis na yung waiter...
"so? what now?" tanong niya sakin.
"I..I want you back." mahina kong sabi sknya.
"i thought you didn't like this marriage? itinapon mo na nga yung wedding ring mo eh." sabi niya sakin.
"it's not for me...It's for the kids..." sagot ko.
"ha! why? your ex lover left and no one would stand as a father for you kids?" matalim niyang sagot sakin na ikinabigla ko...
para akong sinampal doon...
para akong pinatay...
gusto kong maging ama siya sa mga anak namin, pero tinangihan niya ako...ang mga anak namin..
"ano? tama ako db?" dagdag niya pa.
"Gello..." mahina kong sambit ng pangalan niya.
"what Pricilla?" matalim parin ang pag tanong niya.
"I just want you to be a father for your kids...for our kids..." sagot ko habang tinitingnan ko siya sa mga mata...I want to see the Gello I loved, pero hindi ko yun nakikita saknya...
"I told you I can't" sabi niya sakin.
"please..." mahina kong bulong...
"I don't want to..." madiin niyang sagot...dun ako nasakntan...I want to slap him, but I'm not doing this for myself...
this is for my kids...
"please..." mahina kong bulong habang tumutulo na ang mga luha ko...
*Gelo's POV*
I saw her tears...
this is my weakness..to see her cry...
I don't want to see her like this...but I have to do this...I have to let her walk out of my life...
tumayo na ako para maka alis na ako, hindi ko kayang nakikita siyang umiiyak...
pero nabigla ako ng may humawak sa kamay ko...
at pag harap ko naka luhod siya sa harap ko...
"please Gello..the kids needs you....they need a father." mahinang bulong niya sakin habang naka luhod parin, pinag titinginan na kami ng mga tao...yung waiter na paparating sana hindi na tumuloy...
"Pricilla,stop this." sagot ko sknya.
"Please.i won't force you to love me, just love my kids..they are yours too.." mahinang bulong niya sakin...
how can I say no?
"okey.bring them this afternoon in my condo...the three of you would stay there." sabi ko sabay talikod saknya at iniwan ko na siya dun..I wanted to walk back and asked her to come with me...
I would like to packed the kids things with her and welcome them to my condo...
I wanted to do things but this is not the right time...
just like I said, we were meant for each other before....but not this time...
but she leave me no choice but to make this love end in a painful way....
*PRICILLA's POV*
He said yes!
tama nga ata si Richard...Gello loves our kids...
but richard was wrong in one thing...Gello doesn't love me anymore...
tangap ko na yun...
our marriage was nothing....
pero hindi parin ako na uubusan ng pag-asa...maybe someday, Gello would know that I still love him!
siguro hindi ngayon...
I looked at the paper na hawak ko...
is this the right thing to do?
a divorce with the man I love...
but before that...I have give Gello a chance to be a father for his own kids...
this love for him was the most painful battle I ever fought in my whole life...
I fought for him eight years ago...
and look where that love ended...
in this painful ending.
**END**
