Stepping outside through the back door of the studio for some air and a quick smoke. I felt a chill go down my spin. It felt good after working up a sweat. I was giving it my all tonight, tired or not. I missed this and was enjoying every moment of it. It brought back old memories, I could hear the other two in the room just jamming to random riffs. It put a smile on my lips, one I hadnt been able to do in months. It was always my way of releasing whatever negative thoughts or moods I was in . Today it was nice to feel like my old self.
The smell of smoke came across my nose. Not from my cigg but like a fire. I rushed around to the front of the building in panic. Nothing. I ran to the other side, feeling my heart hammering against my ribs.The dream flashed in my head. All I saw way that boy and fire all around. I stopped dead in my tracks and felt myself exhale. It was just this fat guy with greasy hair BBQing on his balcony.
I watched for a bit, feeling stupid. Then decided I needed to go back inside and join the other two. I think I needed another intense round of jamming to this feeling to go away.
***** a few days later***
I was woken up by my alarm still sleepy from the long night I had. My body felt exhausted after being dragged to a party with Victoria, who is like a vampire and never slept. I had only 3 hours at most. I still felt the alcohol on my breath and reeking from my clothes that I threw on the floor. I crammed my head back under my pillow, groaning cause I only had 40 minutes till work. I rolled myself off the bed and landed on my feet, dragging them to the bathroom. I wiped the sleep crusties from my eyes and gazed up. I looked like hell. My mascara was running down my face and my hair was…. I cant even explain .I knew I should of never teased it.
Turing on the hot water to wash my face and tried to yank at my tangled birds nest looking hair. 15 minutes later my face was make up free and my hair was decent
It wasn’t sticking up basically.
I walked out searching the flat to see if Vicky was well enough to go to work. I found her on the couch. Or should I say half on the couch and half on the floor. I tried to pick her up so she could actually lay on the couch but she swatted me away and mumbled something. So I moved her legs on the ground , shoved a pillow under her head and got a blanket from her room. I quickly ran to get my uniform on and do my teeth before grabbing her keys from the table and slipping out. I knew she wasn’t going any where so I see no harm in borrowing her car for the day. It had been almost a month since I arrived back home and I had a busy schedule and was use of working my day shifts at the small café by the Docks. My evening classes and the reckless nights with Victoria. It wasn’t my favorite but at least I knew she was safe and I wasn’t by myself. Only my morning rides to work or my subway to school were my fearful moments of the day. When my mind wondered.
It was about mid afternoon and I was leaning on the counter reading the news paper while sipping on what had to be my third coffee of the day. I yawned still feeling the effects from last night. My co-worker, Alice came out holding food boxes she nudged me and nodded in the direction of the door. I gave her a side smile and then looked in the direction she nodded to. There coming up the steps of the patio was the guy from my dream. Or was a I dreaming?.
Did I fall asleep working again?. So glad my boss isn’t here right now. Maybe if I pinch myself...
"Ouuch" I jumped as i pinched myself.
Okay im not dreaming.
He had dark fitted jeans that where ripped at the knees and hugged perfectly at a his hips, moving upwards he had a white tee and an unzipped hoodie that was black with white were the zipper was. His sleeves where rolled up showing the muscles in his forearm as he opened the door. He walked in and looked around. Taking off his sunglasses he glanced at me , his eyes still as dark and gorgeous as I first saw them. I was frozen. I had to be dreaming.
The guy gave me an awkward smile.
"Hayley!" Alice yelled in my ear. Making me jump, I shook my head and realized my mouth was open.
“ I have to get something from the back” I stood straight and turned on my heel to the back.
I stood against the closed door breathing heavily. I shook my head and raced over the monitor to watch through the camera. Alice took his order and handed him his coffee. He looked around and before walking to the condiment stand. Seeing Alice heading in my direction I knew I was going to get it.
“ Dude! What’s wrong with you today?” She spat coming through the back door.
I stared at her blankly as she stood there with her hands on her hips, Then at the screen realizing he took a seat directly in front of the counter I was standing at before.
Alice looked over and turned to face me with an evil grin.
“ SO.. somebody has the hots for mister big shoot.” she saw I wasn’t paying attention so she leaned over and pinched me.
“ OOuch! What was that for?”
“ For not listening to me, and for leaving me when you know I have to put the food out. What’s wrong with you ?”
“ Sorry. I had a long night with Victoria, but I cant go out there”
“Okay, that explains half of it, but the other half? I mean you where drooling . Control yourself, no guy likes a drooling slut. You’ll make him think your retarded”
“ Hey! I didn’t drool, and im not a slut. But I cant face him. Its embarrassing now” I could feel my cheeks start to heat up. I couldnt tell her the real reason. She would think im nuts if she knew I dreamt about a guy i've never met.
Alice signed “Do you want to do food?” I smiled and nodded
She handed me a few boxes and sent me out. I was hesitant but I had no choice now. Taking a big breath, I opened the door. Making sure to stare directly in front of me and not make eye contact. Feeling his eyes flicker over to me, I just kept walking. Suddenly feeling like I was walking stupidly, my stomach turned to knots and I prayed I wouldn’t trip and make this even more embarrassing.
Safely I made it. I tried to concentrate on the food but kept glancing over. He left his seat. I rose up and quickly scanned the room.
Where did he go?
My stomach dropped when my eyes landed on the mysterious boy, leaning over my newspaper I had left open on the counter. Crap!
Alice came from the back room and made faces behind him. I made the slit throat hand gesture towards her, but of course my luck he saw and gave me a confused look.
Just my luck.
I ducked my head down and carried on putting out the trays of food out. It wasnt long after he left the store.
Ugh! Im an idiot. I cant deal with this.
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This is my own story. All ideas are from me about 5 years ago. Life. You are born to make something out of it, live it and die. It's normal, You have choices and options on how to live it. Not me, my life is twisted. Who ever thought you'd be born...