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Pen Your Pride

Autumn's P.O.V.

Liam, Louis, Zayn, Niall, Harry, Nathan, Jake, Madison, Janni, Kayla, and Me. All sat in the second row at John's funeral.

Janni was Liam's girlfriend now and Kayla was a friend of Louis.

John died a week ago. Madison and I were taking it the hardest. Me and her were both orphans now. Yes, we have the boys and each other but we were parent-less.

~Flash back~ One Week ago

Liam's phone began to ring.

"Hello?" He asked. It was a pause and his eyes went wide. "Okay we're on our way."

"What's wrong," I asked.

"John is dying."

~*~*~*~*~*~

Liam and I rushed to the hospital. When we got there we burst the doors open and I ran to John's room.

"Sorry no one is allowed in this patients room ma'am. Only close relatives," a male doctor said.

"I'm his daughter," I said. I walked in John's room to see a lot of machines hooked up to him and Madison crying beside his bed.

"How's he doing?" I asked her.

"N-Not good," she replied.

I sighed as tears stung my eyes. I held his hand.

"They s-said h-he can d-d-pass away at a-any m-moment now," she said.

"Hey," Dad said. "D-don't cry. It's going to be alright. Everyone has to go at some point and right now I'm one of those people. But I know you g-guys can survive with out me," He explained, giving us a small smile. "No matter how many tough times life puts you through keep fighting, okay? I want you to know that I love you and nothing can change that. P-promise me that you guys will be there for each other in the future?"

I looked at Madison. "I promise," I said.

Madison nodded quickly and hugged me, "I promise too."

"My little angels," dad said, giving us a broken smile. "I love you."

"We love you too," we said. We stood up and hugged him tightly.

He patted are back. I looked up at him and he wiped a strand of my hair behind my hair. "Never say you can't. You can do anything you believe you can. So never say can't." I remember he use to tell me this when I was younger. But it was so long ago. The last time he said it. I was around thirteen.

He kissed my cheek. "Goodbye."

"Goodbye," I said and wiped away his tears, letting my own fall.

Just then we heard a flat line and Madison broke into tears.

~End Of Flashback~


From the speakers you could here 'Long Distance' by Brandy playing. I thought it was a good song for the funeral.

"All I have is this picture in a frame. That I hold close to see your face everyday. With you is where I'd rather be, but we're stuck where we are and it's so hard. So far, this long distance is killing me. I wish that you were here with me, But we're stuck where we are and it's so hard. So far, this long distance is killing me. It's so hard. (So hard) When we are. (When we are). We're so far, this long distance is killing me. It's so hard. (So hard). When we are. (When we are). So far, this long distance is killing me. "

"Now the minutes feel like hours. And the hours feel like days while I'm away. You know right now I can't be home, but I'm coming home soon, coming home soon. All I have is this picture in a frame. That I hold close to see your face again. With you is where I'd rather be, but we're stuck where we are and it's so hard. So far, this long distance is killing me. I wish that you were here with me, but we're stuck where we are and it's so hard. So far. Can you hear me crying? (Ooh) Can you hear me crying? (Ooh) Can you hear me crying? (Ooh) With you is where I'd rather be, but we're stuck where we are and it's so hard. So far, this long distance is killing me. I wish that you were here with me." 

The song played and I begun to zone out knowing I would have to get up and play soon. I sighed. Why did John have to be gone?

I felt really sad for Madison too. She lost her biological parents and don't even know who they are. Then she lost her adoptive father when he just adopted her in less than a year.

She's been crying a lot lately. But so have I.

I heard Bruno's song end and I got up with the guitar my mom gave me. Yes, I still have it. I just haven't used it in a long time. I put the microphone up to my mouth and begun to speak. 

"Some of you don't know me but I'm John's daughter, Autumn Avery Willow. John wasn't the greatest father. But he was a fairly kind man. I remember when I was around two years old and I wanted this stuffed unicron at the carnival. He kept playing the game until he got the unicorn instead of going to the gift shop and buying one." I chuckled remembering the memory.

"Even when I told him that it was okay. That we all couldn't do something. And that he can't win the game. He won me that unicorn though. When I was younger he would always tell me 'never say can't.' That was actually one of the last things he said to me when he died. So we've had are bad times and our good times. Probably more than any father and daughter but he was good man at heart. I would like to dedicate 'Never Say Can't' By Bruno Mars to my beloved Dad, John Willow."

When I was just a little girl
Barely strong enough to stand
I could always count on him
Oh

He thought me everything I know
And 'till this day it shows
He was more than just a friend (Ah ah ah)

There were so many times I would doubt myself
But his words were always there to help

How would it be?
Where I am?
If my father didn't tell me
To never say I can't

He'd carry me
And never let me fall
Oh and the only thing he asked
Right before he passed
Was to never say you can't

Oh
Never say you can't
Oh oh oh Oh

So when last rain begins to fall
And you're out there on your own
And you can't see a thing
No no no

Just find a voice that understands
For me it was my old man
Taught me to say the words I can
Oh

There were so many times I would doubt myself
But his words were always there to help

How would it be?
Where I am?
If my father didn't tell me
To never say I can't

He'd carry me
And never let me fall
Oh and the only thing he asked
Right before he passed
Was to never say you can't

Everything he taught me would stay with me forever
No I won't forget a thing
Oh because of dad I now know myself better
And I hope I can do for him what he did for me

How would it be?
Where I am?
If my father didn't tell me
To never say I can't

He'd carry me
And never let me fall
Oh and the only thing he asked
Right before he passed
Was to never say you can't

Oh
Never say you can't
Oh
Never say you can't    

I sung out. When I was finished all my family members clapped and smiled at me. I gave them a small smile before getting off stage.

There's nothing to clap about. Nothing to smile about. Yeah, I might have an okay voice. But there is nothing to be glad about when you're at your fathers funeral.

I sat back down in my previous seat and wrapped my arm around Madison.

The service was over soon and I went up to John's casket and kissed him on the forehead before everyone else also went up to get a last look at him.

I know you're suppose to view the casket in the beginning and then they shut it but I wanted to wait for them to close it at the end.

I guess that's it.

No more John.

I don't have a father anymore.

Just me, Madison, and my boys.

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