single by twenty five x jeon jungkook

twelve

an: um here we go ... 95% dialogue ... idk anymore... sorry if u waited 2 years for this ...

i scrunch up my nose distastefully and shake my head. "yeah no. are you following me? did somewhere in my resume say that i was going on a blind date tonight at this japanese restaurant and at this time?"

"uh, i'm going to use the bathroom. be back in a sec ..." taehyung pushes his chair back and awkwardly leaves the table, unsure of how to react when he felt an argument rising between jungkook and i.

"no. what are you even talking about? is little chaeyoung afraid to have dinner with jungkook? are you scared of me, princess?" he smirks playfully, creeping his fingers towards mine on the table. i retreat my hands and roll my eyes.

"okay, stop. what do you want from me? have i not made it clear that i don't want to see you again?"

he pretends to think for a few seconds, facial expressions changing frequently. "no, you haven't."

"bloody hell, jungkook. just tell me what you want and stop bothering me. how are you even well enough to sit across from me right now? how much ginseng did you consume to be here, huh?"

"why do you ask so many questions? just be chill, you're so on edge." he says calmly, as if smoke hadn't been coming out of my ears just now.

"okay. sorry. you're right, i'm just .. okay, sorry. i'm just being irrational because i remember something you don't. but don't worry about that. have you found a secretary yet?" i fumble with my fingers under the table and try my best to remain relaxed. i didn't have to be so aggressive with him, after all i'm kind of just another stranger to him.

"right, no. but yes. i found you and i want you to be my secretary. your application is the best out of all." he nods formally, speaking slowly. i try to recall what was on my application, and why he thinks i'm so capable of this job when i have no experience. and he kicked me out of the interview room too. that's confusing.

"ah .. i see."

"this is a full time job. i can send you how your shift works if you confirm you're interested in taking this offer up."

"i'm not sure if i can, jungkook. it'll be hard for me to .. work with you."

"and why is that? if you're not scared of me, what is it?"

"i told you. i remember something you don't. i just don't feel right when i see you .. i don't .. i don't feel comfortable."

"care to tell me why?"

"why do you ask so many questions?" i shoot back. "just be chill. relax, dude. you're so ... on edge." he chuckles and i pull a tight smile. "have you ever hurt your head?"

"no. why do you ask? is my head shape a little funky?" he tilts his head and gives me a smile that i was so used to seeing in my dreams it feels unreal it see right now.

"yeah. reminds me of ... like a pumpkin or something." i lie, redirecting myself back to the fantasy of the both us at fifteen. it didn't make any sense. everything is still so vivid to me, while he doesn't remember a thing at all. is this for show? why wouldn't he remember me? why would he be pretending not to know me? "anyways, it's been a while. should i go look for taehyung?"

"no, he won't be back." jungkook says surely with that same smirk i didn't like at all. "he uses the bathroom excuse when he wants to leave."

"oh." is all that i muster out and i pull my lips into a thin line. "can i leave too?"

"no, stay." jungkook morphs his smirk into a warm smile and my heart feels like it has sunken to my stomach. "let's eat together."

"i don't get it. aren't you ashamed to know me?" i take a deep breath before i can really look at him, afraid of the answer. "it doesn't make any sense. i know you know who i am. you have to."

he doesn't reply for a few seconds, just staring at me in awe. i think he knows that i am at my limit. i push the chair out and stand up, closing my eyes for a brief second before my lips start to quiver in embarrassment and sadness. i have to say something before i leave, but for some reason, i just can't.

"okay. chaeyoung, sit down." he says in a soft voice, like this was a game and he just surrendered. "eat with me. let's talk. we have a lot to catch up on, don't we? it's been a long ten years."

an: LoL what da fk i hate this book i forgot what it's even about HAHAHAHAAHAH but i'm sorry for the HELLA HELLA BAD WAIT it'll get better i promise this book is dying and i'm trying to revive it I GOPE IT'S JUST THIS CHAPTER OKOKOKOK i can't stand this book omg