A/N: DEDICATION TO xPrincess BECAUSE SHE MADE THE NEW COVER ILYSM
The last thing I expected to see when Carter opened the door was her with red crying eyes and a trembling lip. I had barely gotten a sentence out before she simply collapsed into me, clutching onto my shirt for dear life, sobbing uncontrollably.
I sort of just froze, not knowing what to do. I've never had to deal with a crying girl before, especially one that I maybe possibly most definitely like. What exactly am I supposed to do?
Slowly, I wrapped my arms around Carter's shaking frame, pulling her even closer to me. I guess that was the right thing to do because she responded immediately, crying even harder and crushing herself to me.
"Hey, hey, it's okay." I said softly, rubbing her back. I lifted my head up and awkwardly looked around, making sure nobody was watching us in her hallway. "Let's go inside, c'mon."
I felt her gingerly nod against my chest, reluctantly letting go and stepping away from me. I closed the door shut to her apartment and placed my hand on the small of her back, leading her to the couch we had been sitting on talking just half an hour ago. This had officially been the longest night ever.
Carter had calmed down a little bit by now, still sniffling though, a stray tear falling from her beautiful eyes here and there. What the hell happened after I left? I could barely get Carter to crack a smile half the time and now here she is an absolute wreck. I couldn't help but worry that this has something to do with me crashing into her life as of late.
I didn't say anything for a moment, just sat close to her on the couch and let her get it out of her system. She had her feet tucked up beside her, facing me. Her hand rested next to my arm, fingertips just barely grazing my skin, making goosebumps appear.
Her small sniffles and shaking shoulders were tearing me apart, and I just wanted to take all of her broken pieces and put them back together. Fuck that sounds so cheesy but I don't care, this girl is bringing out the inner pansy in me and oddly enough I'm okay with it.
"Carter tell me what I can do, please." I said quietly, being brave and putting my hand on her knee.
She let out a small, sad laugh and shook her head. Her shaggy blonde hair covered her face and I had to restrain myself from reaching out and pushing it back so I could see her better.
"I'm sorry, I didn't exactly expect you to show up at the door while I was in the middle of a mental breakdown." She said at a horrible attempt of humor, sitting up straighter and wiping her eyes. It was actually amazing how well she pulled herself together, it just further showed me how strong she is. "I swear I haven't cried in almost three years, and you show up in my life and I'm suddenly a blubbering mess."
"This is my fault?" I spat out quickly, turning more towards her. "I'm so sorry for whatever it is Carter, if it's the almost kiss that happened when I left I didn't mean to push you I -"
I was silenced when Carter rolled her eyes in typical Carter fashion and literally closed my mouth, pinching my lips shut with her thumb and index finger. I eyed her quizzically, sure that I looked absolutely ridiculous.
"Are you going to let me explain, or are you going to continue apologizing for things you don't need to be sorry about?" She asked bluntly.
I mumbled my assent and she chuckled before letting me go. I ran my tongue across my lips to get them wet again and if I'm not mistaken I caught her gaze lingering there as I did so, her eyes widening. Was I making her nervous?
"So uh, yeah, uh..."
I take that as a yes.
Shaking her head and regaining her senses, I smirked as she began to speak again.