• Rainy hearts •
The pressure got to us. You were going through your confidence issues, fear of failure and expressing your opinion. And I was going through emptyness I felt, trust issues and the fear of losing you.
I was running away from my home life because I didn't want it. And you were running away from your home because of me.
And we've had our first passionate fight on 11th of August when you started caring about what other people thought of us.
It partly ruined us, alongside with all the problems I was going through with addiction of self distruction.
And you were addicted to running far away.
We were so passionate at the time. I remember the look you've had in your eyes when you saw me cry. You looked broken down and defeated.
°° 11th of August °°
"Why are you so obsessed with what they think about us?! Why did you start to ignore me around them?" I yelled at Simon when we were standing at the bus stop, soaked from the rain.
"Because I don't want you to get hurt by them!" He screamed back
"So, pretending we don't talk is supposed to help me? Simon, that's hurts me even more!" I raised my voice as I started to cry.
"I really thought you were different. But now I see that you care too much about everyone else." I said as I shook my head.
"So, you don't care about the rumour circling around the school?!" He asked as he raised his voice
"I care about you, so I don't have to worry about the rumours. I don't have reputation! You only worry about your reputation!" I yelled at him.
"I don't!" He yelled back.
"Then why all this?" I calmed myself down as I asked him the question quietly.
"I'm just worried about you." He said
"I'm sorry but I can't see that." I started to cry.
He got closer to me and stroked my cheeks as I looked up to face him.
"I have all my other problems. I don't need this, if we're going to act like this. I don't need anything like this." I said
"Please don't say that. I don't want to fight." He quietly said as he leaned his forehead against mine.
He softly kissed me, as I could still feel the rain falling on my shoulders.
I kissed him back.
We spent a few more minutes like that until the bus came. We got in and sat down. The bus was completely empty.
I got closer to him and burried my face in his chest. He hugged me tightly, keeping me warm.
And we calmed ourselves down like that. A hug was always enough.
We couldn't control the love and the hate. We hated our circumstances but loved each other.
And we thought our love was strong enough.
But It was too weak for a cruel world like this.
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