Don't Love That Face
clara: may tinanong sa'kin si nanay.
tumingin si mattias sa kanya. nakita niyang nanatili ang tingin ni clara sa ginagawang kwintas. hilig niya iyon, tapos ay ibebenta sa kababaihan sa bayan.
hindi siya nakasagot nang maayos dahil sinusuri niya ang taniman nila. malayo sila sa isa't isa pero rinig nila ang boses ng bawat isa.
tahimik ang paligid. mahangin kaya kahit may sikat ng araw ay sinamahan ni clara si mattias sa taniman.
clara: bakit daw ikaw.
natigilan si mattias.
narinig niya ang sinabi ni clara. ngunit dahil sa pagkabigla ay iyon kaagad ang nasambit niya.
tumigil din sa ginagawa si clara. nagkatinginan sila mula sa malayo.
hindi mabasa ni mattias kung ano ang iniisip ni clara. madalas, alam niya ang iniisip nito, pero hindi ngayon.
clara: tinanong ako ni nanay kung bakit daw ikaw.
walang nasabi si mattias kaya nagpatuloy sa pagsasalita si clara.
clara: wala akong nasagot.
nanatili ang tingin ni mattias sa kanya. tinatantiya sa mukha ni clara ang magiging reaksyon niya.
maya-maya ay tumalikod siya.
mattias: ganon ba?
nagpatuloy siya sa ginagawa kahit masama na ang kanyang pakiramdam.
clara: sabi niya, bakit hindi ko raw alam e may plano na kong magpakasal sa'yo. dapat daw alam ko na.
nanatiling walang imik si mattias. gusto niya rin tanungin kay clara iyon, bakit hindi niya alam? sapagkat siya, alam na alam niya ang isasagot kung sakaling may magtanong sa kanya nito.
clara: tinanong ko siya pabalik kung bakit si itay ang pinili niyang pakasalan, wala rin siyang nasagot.
umangat ang ulo ni mattias. hindi siya kuntento sa punto ni clara. iba ang paniniwala niya.
mattias: ako, alam ko kung bakit. ako, kapag tinanong, alam ko ang sasabihin. hindi ba dapat ganon ka rin?
nagulat si clara nang tumaas ang tono ng boses ni mattias.
mattias: hindi ito laro lang sa'kin, clara. seryoso ako sa'yo.
lumamlam ang mga mata ni clara kumpara sa matalim na tingin ni mattias.
clara: seryoso rin ako....
alam naman ni mattias, hindi pareho ang nararamdaman nila sa isa't isa. mas matimbang ang sa kanya, mas mabigat.
it was crazy. yssa knew they would click but not so fast. this is madness.
she've met enough people to know this was not normal. it's hard to find someone who can handle her. yet here she is, enjoying jin's company.
she doesn't think of it too much, she doesn't want to freak out when she finally realized how much of herself she let him see.
her friends don't know a thing about him. she keeps on reminding herself that it's not her responsibility to keep them updated of her life, she does this to stop the gnawing guilt up her sleeves.
"lunch?" jin asked her like every other day. it kind of become their routine to eat lunch together.
at first, she was fine with it. it was cool, they were friends. nothing more, nothing less.
but the fact that her friends don't know anything about them bothered her. it looked like she was hiding something.
why the hell would she hide a new found friendship with a boy to her friends?
because they would make a big deal out of this! she screamed inside her head. she knew they would do exactly as that.
she glanced at him. "i can't." she gave out an awkward smile. "i have a date, sorry."
his eyes widened and his mouth formed an 'o'. "you," he pointed at her. "have a date?" he asked, a little surprised.
his rhetorical question registered to yssa's mind. "no!" she immediately exclaimed, a little frantic. "not a date, date," she explained. "my friends and i set wednesday's lunch as our weekly date. it stuck until now, kaya ayun, i can't come with you."
he nodded. "but," he grinned. "i can come with you."
she didn't let him come, of course.
she can't handle her friends' behavior when it comes to boys. especially when it's her lovelife. they went full-on crazy whenever someone showed interest to her, even if it's just a little hope or possibility, they will still push it.
she heaved a deep breath, trying to relax.
ba't tense na tense ako? shit. she asked herself.
she faced her friends with a wide smile, then she walks towards them.
it was normal. they talked about random things, just like they usually do, no one suspected yssa for something.
with that, she felt guilty. she need to inform them, now.
"hey!" she heard a voice behind her. it sounds familiar to her. it sounds exactly like—
shit. she cursed mentally.
he was grinning.
her eyes were wide.
he tapped her left shoulder.
he greeted her friends with a smile.
her friends looked at her, confused.
"jin..." she mumbled.
jin gazed at her, still smiling. she looks adorable when surprised, he was loving it.
his friends came behind him. trainor greeted them and waved his hand.
both xandra and michelle don't know what to respond. they don't know this people but they clearly know yssa. now, that's confusing the two of them.
how the hell did yssa knew all these boys? xandra and michelle was sure she's not friendly.
"what the hell?" yssa mouthed. he can't help but to chuckle.
"well, don't you want your friends to meet me? i'm your boy friend."
"WHAT?!" xandra and michelle's voice roared at the café.
what they heard was not boy friend, it was boyfriend.
"he was kidding!" yssa yelled. she looked at him.
"he's a friend." she stressed while glaring at him.
jin shrugged. "that's what i said."
her glare intensified.
he just laughed, louder than necessary.