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This is kinda hard for me to write but here goes nothing....

Why can't we all just keep our mouths closed when we have nothing good to say? Or just not bully anyone.

Today I had to ride the bus, and I don't normally do that but because my mom was sick I had to get on it.

So I was minding my own business, staring at the window, waiting to get dropped off. Then I overhear these girls talking in the seat beside me and what broke me is what they said....

She's so ugly!

Look at her acne!

Blah, blah blah!

First off, I don't even know these girls and they thought I couldn't hear them, but I did, secondly, who are to call someone ugly?

I'm sick and tired of these people bullying other people for no reason! Don't people know just little things like that can really hurt a person! I remember on my first day of school this year I ran home and cried my eyes out in front of my mom (I'm a senior in highschool). Never in my life have I experienced something like that and it's just so hard for me to deal with something like this and I'm honestly reaching my breaking point.

I don't want to do anything anymore.

All I do now is just eat and sleep and cry.

And sometimes those thoughts come into my mind but I try to stray away from that.

I used to be outgoing, I used to talk to everyone and have a good time, be active! But now... I just feel really sad.

Everyday I always put myself down by saying maybe they're right, what if I am dumb or ugly.

I now have severe anxiety and panic attacks because of the bullying. I remember when my teacher told us to get in groups and my heart wouldn't stop racing and I couldn't breathe and I just wanted to cry because I didn't know anyone in that class and I was afraid to be left alone. (I have never felt that before)

I don't have a lot of friends here and I don't have anyone to share my feelings with except you guys and I'm really grateful for that.

I just want to send some positive vibes to you guys because I really need some. If you ever feel down and you need someone to talk with or just rant, you can always count on me to listen.

Thanks for reading.

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