I was getting ready to see Devon. I was so excited because I haven't seen him in months. He was always there for me. Even when Kyle and I broke up. He was a good friend. We were going to get some coffee and talk what has been happening the past few months.
I met him at a little coffee shop just downtown. I was ordering my coffee when I felt a pair of hands around my waist. I jerked and turned around to see Devon behind me. He smiled and I hugged him.
"Long time no see." I said pulling apart from the hug.
"I know I'm so happy to see you again."
I order a muffin and coffee and sat at a little table. Devon sitting across from me.
"So how is everything?" I asked taking a sip of coffee.
"Pretty good. I moved back here. Um I got a raise in my job. I have been just working and working nothing really new. Oh actually I got a new puppy."
"Aw what kind?"
"It's a pug." I smiled.
"That's awesome. Well there has been a lot of things going on in my life."
"I saw Kyle again." I looked down.
"Wait you guys are seeing each other? like you dating again?"
"No we just have been talking. I mean it would be nice to-
"Yeah but he cheated on you." He raised his voice. I shot him a confused look.
"Sorry I just I don't know. I have always had feelings for you."
"Really? Why didn't you say so."
"Because right when I was going to, you told me you were going out with Bret. Oh wait you probably still are fuck." He mumbled
"No I'm not I'm so done with his dumb ass."
"Really what happened?"
"Um I kinda don't want to talk about it."
"I'm here for you."
"I know it's just to hard to talk about."
"Listen I always want to be here for you and protect you. I know I just told you how I felt but I just I don't know but can you be mine? like can you be my... uh.. girlfriend."
I just sat there. Thinking about Kyle. Thinking about if we ever get back together and if I did start trusting him what would I do if I was still dating Devon?
"Violet? hello? it's okay you don't have to."
"No, no Devon, I... would love to." A wide smile was spread across his face.
"Yeah I mean you're an amazing guy and you have always been there for me."
"I have missed you so much. Want to come over?" Okay this was too soon.
"Maybe later I have to go home and get stuff done for school." I lied.
"You're going back to school."
"Yeah." Now I was lying more. We finished our coffee and walked out side.
"I will see you later."
"Okay." He hugged me and hugged him back. Soon he kissed me on the cheek. I didn't feel anything. No sparks or anything.
I arrived home and did my "school work." Which in reality was sitting on the couch doing nothing besides talking to Jessica. I told her about everything. I was in mid sentence when I heard my phone ringing. I got up and went into "my bedroom."
"Kyle?" I asked. He hasn't called, texted or anything in the past few days.
"Violet can we talk?"
"Yes what's up?" I was wondering what he was going to say.
"How are you?" I sighed in relief.
"Good how about you?"
"Not so good." My face dropped.
"Why what's wrong?"
"Well we haven't talked in a few days and I know this might sound creepy but um ugh I went on your twitter to see if you were okay and I saw your tweet."
"Are you...uh dating?"
"Kyle we aren't together and I know you want it and I want it but I just can't trust you right now. He did ask me to be his girlfriend and I said yes." He sighed.
"But I am regretting it. Honestly. Right when I said sure he was asking me to come over to his house to probably get into my pants. Also I feel no connection. Like I do with you." I said the last part so quietly.
"Well maybe we can work something out."
"Maybe Kyle. Listen I lo-
"I have to go I will talk to you later or see you when I get back bye violet." Fuck.