Forgot to Mention [Completed]

Day 28

      If I had to describe to you how I feel, I would tell you that it truly feels like I'm drowning. I feel like I'm being strangled by the world with words and movements suffocating me.

It's days like this that I miss you. I just want a real friend not something that's almost a friend because this is never going to be my real friend. I can't hear it or see it smile nor can I hear its words or see its emotion in its eyes.

I wish you never left.

I'm losing my mind. I don't know what to say anymore. I don't know what to write. I don't know how to live life anymore. Everyday is the same cycle of waking and pretending to not be alone when truly I'm more lonely than ever.

I'm starting to wonder if I should just let the thought of you go. If I should let you go on with your life and I should discontinue with mine.

But heres the real question:
Would I ever consider wanting to accept you back in my life if the opportunity ever arose?

I can only answer with that of no. I wouldn't want to pull you under with me and have you drowning like I am. I wouldn't wish for you to lean on me and fall down like I do... being pulled away from the world.

You deserve better.