You are the one

Please don't go

"C....Cancer?" I asked in surprise. No way. This couldn't be. "Yes, she has brain cancer,you didn't know?" The doctor asked and I shock my head. I felt unbalanced and my heart sank. Marcus was holding me so I won't fall to the ground. "I am so sorry. Your mum is okay now. Bur she needs a chemical dose and she refuses to take it.But she's sleeping, can you talk to her when she wakes up?" He asked and I nodded. "Is there any older relative I can talk to?" The doctor asked. "Yeah, she's on her way. Thank you." I said. Marcus helped me sit down. "Marcus this can't happen. How is she.." I started but couldn't hold my tears, Marcus hugged me tight. "Hey, the doctor said she's okay. Your mother is so strong, she will be fine." Marcus said. "Why did she keep this from me?" I asked. "Maybe she didn't want you to be sad or worried about her." Marcus said. "As if I am not worried right now." I said still sobbing. "She'll be okay." Marcus said rubbing my back. I slept on Marcus's shoulder. I was tired from crying. I woke up afterwards covered by Marcus's coat. He wasn't here. I woke up and checked my phone and Emily had texted me.
-Emily: Came home and didn't find you or your mum. I am worried text asap.
-Me: Come to the hospital.
I sent without reading her response. I was about to call Marcus when he showed in the end of the hallway. "Hey, I got you sandwich and coffee. You must be hungry." Marcus said. "Thanks Marcus. I will just have coffee I am not hungry." I said taking my coffee. "Oh no no. You will eat then drink your coffee. Your mum will never accept what you are doing. Now open your mouth." Marcus said and I smirked then he started feeding me. After I finished, I saw Emily running in the hallway then she was talking to a doctor. Then she saw me and came to me. "Mia! I am so sorry you had to live this al..." She started. "You didn't tell me." I said calmly. "I know, I am sorry." She said. "Sorry? Is that what you have?!" I said angrily. "She is my mother and you didn't bother to tell me what's wrong with her!" I shouted. "Mia, calm down,please. Sit down and I will tell you anything you want." She said and I did. Not because I forgive her or anything but because I need to know what happened. "It's all started after your problem with Jackson." Emily started. "When she abused you and her mood was always bad. Also, after she shouted to Monica's mother. That's why Monica's mum fired her." Emily said. I didn't know that my mum fought with Monica's mother. "When your mum realized something was wrong with her timber, she went to the doctor. She made some tests and ended up having Brain cancer." She said lowering her voice. I felt a tear come down my cheek. "She searched for so many ways to treat it without taking chemicals. She went to many doctors even many countries. Remember the time she travelled to Paris? The one that was days before your birthday." She said. I put my hands to my mouth. Oh no. I am crying now. "She had to miss your birthday in order to meet a doctor there to help her. But unfortunately, they all said the only way was to take chemicals." Emily said. I was crying hard. I didn't say anything. "Mia! She's awake!" Marcus screamed. "Really?." I said getting up and whipped my tears. I quietly opened the door and got in. "Hey." I said with a smile. "Heyy baby." My mum said. "Are you okay?" I asked. "Better after I saw you." She said smiling. "Mum, why don't you take your chemicals?" I asked in voice of pain. "Chemicals make me even angrier and you saw what I did to you. Everything I said or did to you was out of my hand and I am sorry for it." She said and I started crying again. "Then, it will make me loose my hair. Do you want me to be hairless? I won't be beautiful." She said sarcastically but she was hurt. "But that will heal you up,mum. Not taking it will increase your pain." I said. "I don't want to. I am happier this way." She said faking a smile. "But mum we all know how this will en.." I said. "Death. So what?" She said. "Mum I can't loose you." I said. "You won't." She said taking my hand then we were silent for a while. "Can you call your dad?" My mum asked and I nodded. I called my dad and he said he was already in the airport traveling for work but he will come to us first. "Hey baby." Marcus came from behind me then he kissed me. He saw my mum after I left. "Hi." I said. "Did you talk to her? Did she change her mind?" I asked. "Unfortunately, no. She's sleeping now and she isn't even thinking about taking any chemicals." Marcus said which made me sad. "Let's hope she will be okay soon." He said hugging me. "Yeah." I said. "Come with me, I will drive you home. You have to change your clothes and maybe get some rest." Marcus said. "I can't leave mum. Can you go home and get me some clothes that you have for me?" I asked. "Yes, sure." Marcus said then I kissed him goodbye and I went back to my mum's room. She was sleeping. I took off my heels and slept next to her. I hugged her and then drifted to sleep. I don't know how long did I sleep but I was awakened by a hand shaking my shoulder. It was dad. "Hey." He said. "Dad!" I said and hugged him. "Hey baby, how are you doing?" He asked. "I am okay. But I don't think she is." I said looking at my mum. From our voices my mum woke up. "Hey." My mum said to my dad. "Mia, can you leave us alone please?" My dad said and I nodded. I went outside and Marcus was sleeping on a chair. I didn't want to wake him up. He's so tired from everything that happened this day. I got a call from Tara. "Hi." I said. "Hello sister. How are you?" She asked. "I heard of what happened to your mum, I am so sorry. Is she okay?" She asked. "She's fine for now." I said. "She will be okay. I wish her a speedy recovery." Tara said. "Thank you. And thanks for calling." I said. I hang up and after long time my dad came out of the room. He looked sad and his eyes were tired. He was probably crying. But he's hiding it from me. "Mia, your mum wants you." He said. "Dad,what's wrong?" I asked worried. "Nothing honey. Just talk to her." He said. I went into the room and sat by her side and held her hand. "Mum, what's wrong? What's happening?" I asked in cracked voice. "Baby, I don't think I have much time." She said. "No, don't say that! You will be okay and you will come home wi.." I started but she stopped me. "Baby, please listen." She said. "I want you to know that I am dying happy! And that's the only thing I would ask for. I raised you right. And I would never been more proud of you." I started crying. "What I want is to see you happy and healthy. And I am grateful you have Marcus by your side. He will take care of you. And also you have your dad by your side." She said. "No mum. I want you here." I said sobbing. "We are all leaving one day,sweetie. That's a fact. I just want to know that you aren't mad at me." She said. "What are you saying? I will never be mad at you." I said. "And I am sorry for my yelling and hitting you the past weeks but I want you to know I love you and I didn't mean to.." She said then she was coughing really hard, I held her hand tight. "I love you." She said smiling. "No... No no no. Mum don't do this you are scaring me. Don't talk to me as if it's our last talk." I said crying. "I really love you. Take care of yourself." She said then she slowly closed her eyes. And she was smiling. "Mum? No no no mum wake up!" I said shaking her. No response. "Mum no. Please talk to me! Yell at me mum do anything!" I screamed. "Mum! Mum! Pleaaaase." I was yelling and someone opened the door. I was still holding to my mum's hand. "Mum! Please don't go!!" I was crying really hard. I was hugged from behind and taken outside. "No leave me! Mum!" I screamed. "Mia please stop." Marcus said. "Marcus she can't go! She can't leave me alone." I hugged him crying. "She can't go." I said.
*The day of the funeral*
I don't know how I passed that day. Screams. Cries. Yelling. Emotions. For me, the rest of the day was blurry. I haven't accepted her absence. She shouldn't leave me. Marcus is here by my side, keeping me steady. He went to his house to get dressed and we will go to the funeral. My dad is here. Also, Tara came. Most of our families,too. So many people. So many "Thank you." To be said. I was getting dressed, black dress,boots,coat and put my hair in ponytail. I honestly don't know why people wear black at funerals. Don't tell me it's grief. Most people who are wear black and are dancing inside. Lies. "Baby, are you ready?" Marcus asked and I nodded. He put his hand around me then we went downstairs then to the funeral. I didn't really concentrate on what was being sad. All I was thinking of is mum. And how I wronged her and mistreated her in her last days. But I know she's loving me, she always does. Lots of people came to meet me and tell me these stuff to be strong and hold it together. "I am sorry for your mum. Are you okay?" Someone said. Jackson.