Evan and I have been friends for two weeks now. I find him kind of cute, not as cute as Gerald of course!
He's still pretty cute though. My friend, Nicole, is his fiance though. So I cried for a day, including at night when I was trying to sleep.
Evan has been trying to comfort me about Gerald's death. It still haunts me and makes me depressed whenever I think about it.
I know he misses me, of course I miss him also. I miss him so much, sometimes I think of killing myself. Gerald was too young to die. He was only 27 years old.
It wasn't fair, this is exactly why he didn't like airplanes. He was scared he was going to crash, also he's just been in airplanes too much it irritated him a little.
One time, I remember, he invited me on one of his tours. I went with him, and we had the greatest time ever! I wish I can somehow bring him back to life, so that we can bring back those memories.
I went to my room and grabbed a blade from my nightstand. I slowly rolled up my sleeve and saw a lot of cuts already there. I put the blade to my wrists and slowly pressed down.
The blade was cold against my skin, it was cold earlier this morning so it must've made the blade cold. I took in a deep shaky breath as I slowly moved the blade to the right so it would cut.
Damn, it was painful. There was a knock on the door, then it opened, ugh. It's Nicole. She's so fucking annoying! She's always like judging my house and she's like "Stay away from my Evan!"
I'm just like boi! Shut up, I don't even like him. Ok I do like him but only a little. Ok maybe a lot, but that's not the point!
The point is that Evan is Nicole's fiance. I can't take Evan away from her unless I REALLY tried. But still, I don't want to.
I don't feel like intruding their relationship." What are you doing y/n?!" Nicole asked. I put the blade away and sighed.
"Nothing Nicole." I said irritated." Well it looks like you're cutting yourself!" "Then why'd you ask what I'm doing if you already knew?"
"Put the blade away and don't cut youself ever again!" She said. I groaned quietly," I already put it away. I can handle myself perfectly fine."
"No you can't! You need me. I'm your best friend and I need to be here for you." "No you don't Nicole. I can handle myself!"
"No you can't you're not even that smart. I'm much smarter, and much prettier, of course, than you." She flipped her hair giggling.
"Are you fucking kidding me?! You're not pretty, and you're not smart! Cause if you were smart, you wouldn't have said that shit!"
"Ugh, whatever." Nicole said then started to walk out. Evan, Gerald, please forgive me for what I'm about to do.
I grabbed the blade and closed the door before she could walk out. Nicole looked at me," What now fugly bratty bitch?"
She has been bullying me, in fact, she not even my friend. In second grade, she said we were friends, but in third grade, she began to bully me.
"Fuck you Nicole!" I said before putting the blade up to her throat.