Ricky's POV
It's been a month since Emery left, and since that day in the airport I've had a lot of time to think. I like Emery, as more than a band mate and best friend. I have a crush on him, I have had one since that night in Australia. I was just to scared to admit to myself that I'm into a guy and that guy being my best friend. I'm scared of being gay, I really am, I don't want anyone to hate me.
I'm pretty sure I've always been gay because when I was with Chloe I never really liked her all that much, yeah she was pretty but all I would catch myself thinking of were boys, how I found them attractive. That's part of the reason she and I broke up, but I guess when Emery kissed me that first time it made me realize that I was gay, that terrified me.
When I kissed him this last time it was honestly the best kiss of my life, I felt so at home when I kissed Emery, like that's where my lips were meant to be. But when I pulled away I realized what I had just done and I freaked out.
But now that he's gone I feel like my world has fallen apart, he won't reply to my calls or texts, but I guess I deserve that.
As of right now I am scrolling through Instagram and seeing if he has posted anything. I go to his page and my heart stops, there's a photo with him and this girl. The caption reads " had a great day with my beautiful girl <3" he's dating someone?
Well, I guess my whole universe fell apart.
A/N: sorry for the sucky chapter, this is just a filler while I work on the next chapter, it's going to be a big one.
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Just a crush
RomanceMy name is Emery, I'm in a band with my two best friends, Liam and Ricky. Our band is called forever in your mind, lately I've started to gain these feelings for Ricky. Ever since he broke up with Chloe, I've been getting these weird feelings about...