I'm honestly not that attached to you. I'm seeing how long you can go till you decide you don't want me anymore, because that shows me if you care or if you were just here for the nudes. It's upsetting but honestly? I won't ever be able to connect with a fake Adam like the way I did with Justin. It's been like 2 years since he passed away and I just don't think I'll ever have that connection with anyone else. He was someone who genuinely cared for my well being, didn't pressure me into anything, and constantly made sure I was okay. I told him everything and now that he's been gone I find it harder and harder to deal with the pain. It's still there because it never goes away. I'm not sure I'll show anyone this or keep it but I needed to get this out. I miss Justin and I don't think I'll ever get over him. He was my everything . He made me so happy and when I found out he committed I promised myself never to get attached to another fake Adam and I'll keep that promise.
