"Adam come on wake up" a voice said, "no let me sleep" I mumbled. "Adam you need to wake up" came the voice again. The cover was pulled off me as I slowly opened my eyes, Esther jumped on me as I groaned quietly. "Don't make me lick you" she commented, "I just want to sleep" I said. Something wet ran over my cheek as I wiped it away, "that's gross" I commented my eyes meeting her green ones. "Don't say I didn't warn you" she said still sitting on top of me, "why are you waking me up so early" I said.
"Well your manager rang, we answered the phone shes gonna be here in an hour" she explained. "I don't wanna go" I said, "tough come on" garnet said pulling me off the bed. Esther landed on the duvet as she rolled onto her back and looked at me. Garnet pushed me onto the chair and started putting on my makeup. I let her as I tried to stay awake, "here open" Es said shoving toast in my mouth.
I swallowed as she shoved more into my mouth, "ok im done" I said pushing her hand away. "Right done get dressed" garnet said, I yawned and slowly made my way into my walk in wardrobe. I got dressed and wandered back into my room, "ok im ready" I said quietly. "Good, you look great. Half asleep but great" she replied. Esther was spread eagled on my bed, "damn Your bed is so comfy" she commented. "Im glad it meets your approval" I said smirking, "shut your face mr sarcastic" she replied throwing a pillow at me.
"I try" I answered throwing it back at her, we started a big pillow fight sending feathers scattering in every direction. A car horn beeped outside, "that's your ride babe" Garnet said. "I would rather spend the day with you guys" I answered. "We'll still be about when you get home" Esther said. "Now go wow some people with your voice!" garnet said. They waved me off kissing my cheeks, "bye babe!" garnet called. I waved and slid into the car, "oooh get you" violet said smirking. "What? They are my best friends they know me better than I know myself" I replied.
"Hey that could be a song!" I said smiling, "nice" she said high fiving me. "So anyway whats the deal with this thing today? Just the usual, a few songs, questions and signing things" I asked wearily. "Yep you got it sweetcheeks" she answered, I looked out the window absent mindedly for a moment I thought I saw tommy standing at the side of the road. I shook my head, now im seeing things because im so tired. This unknown number that keeps ringing me is putting me on edge, I jump everytime I hear something outside. I can feel someone watching me, sometimes its like they are in the room with me.
Its creepy as hell, I cant sleep and spend most of the night awake freaking out about every little sound. I shivered slightly despite the warm weather, "so then I want you to skip naked through town" a voice said snapping me back to reality. "Huh what that's a terrible idea" I said, "You zoned out" she commented. "Sorry" I muttered, "are you sure your ok?" she asked. I nodded "im fine" I replied not wanting to divulge what was going o in my head right now.
Later that day...
"So how was it?" Esther asked, "it was fine wheres garnet" I replied. "Garnet has gone home, she has a meeting with some big boss from ITV tomorrow morning. Shes got to go back to London, she only came back to get some more stuff and see you" she explained. "Oh right cool" I answered as a flash of blonde swept past me. I turned and saw nothing as I ran a hand over my face rubbing my temples. "I have to head home soon aswell, I have to pack. I leave for new York in a week" she answered.
"Uh huh" I replied quietly, "babe you look like crap" she said sitting on the arm of the chair and brushing my fringe from my eyes. "Thanks babe" I replied, "are you still having those bad dreams?" she asked sliding off the arm and landing next to me. "Im sure I would if I were actually sleeping" I replied. "Why aren't you sleeping?" she questioned, "I have this number that keeps ringing me. I can feel someone watching me, all the time its creeping me out. Like they are right in the room with me. I keep jumping at the smallest noises. Its travelling, interviews, signings, meet and greets. All this anxiety all the time. I havent had a proper day off in weeks all these paps following me digging into my past. I cant deal with it anymore, they are going to find out about tommy. I just c-cant do it" I said letting out a shaky sob.
Her arms were round me in a heartbeat, I rested my head on her shoulder burying my face in her shirt. "You should answer the person, tell them to stop ringing you. Everything is new to you, youre bound to feel overwhelmed adam, theres a chance they wont find out about you and tommy and if they do then so be it. I know you still miss him, you always will I cant promise you it wont stop hurting but it will get easier" she said sifting her fingertips through my hair. "Im just so tired, so tired" I said quietly wiping the tears from my cheeks with my sleeve.
"Look why don't you sleep i'll stay with you" she suggested. I shook my head, "ok well we can watch a film" she answered. I nodded as she slid from the chair and put a dvd in the player. She crossed the room and sat back next to me, "come here" she said holding open her arms. I went into them as the film started. After a while I looked at the time, it was almost 10 pm, she continued to run her fingers through my hair absent mindedly her gaze on the TV. I yawned my eyes growing heavy, I let my head drop into Esther's lap as she laughed quietly still brushing my hair, "sleep" she said quietly as I let my eyes close exhausted and fell asleep one arm hanging over the edge of the sofa.
