Chapter 47: Singing My Heart Out

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A/N: K SO WE ALL KNOW THE FRAY SINGS YOU FOUND ME BUT LET'S PRETEND ALEX WROTE IT K? K. CARRY ON NUTELLA JARS.

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"I found God on the corner of 1st and Amistad
Where the West was all but won
All alone, smoking his last cigarette
I said, 'Where you been?' He said, 'Ask anything,'

Where were you when everything was falling apart?
All my days were spent by the telephone that never rang
And all I needed was a call that never came
To the corner of 1st and Amistad."

I paused, and my fingers strummed the guitar from pure memory. I went back to the night my family died. The night I had written this song.

"Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.

In the end everyone ends up alone
Losing him, the only one who's ever known
Who I am, who I'm not and who I wanna be
No way to know how long he will be next to me

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me.

The early morning, the city breaks
And I've been calling for years and years and years and years
And you never left me no messages
You never sent me no letters
You got some kind of nerve taking all I want.

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor, where were you? Where were you?

Lost and insecure, you found me, you found me
Lying on the floor
Surrounded, surrounded
Why'd you have to wait? Where were you? Where were you?
Just a little late, you found me, you found me."

I felt raw emotion as tears dripped down my face.

"Why'd you have to wait to find me, to find me?"

The five boys stared at me in wonderment.

"I-I'm sorry," I whispered. I put down the guitar, and shaking my head, started off towards the woods.

"No, Alex!" I heard Rob calling my name.

"Just let her go, bro. She'll be back soon," I heard Julian say. I kept running. Eventually I stopped. I turned back, and crept back to the cabins. I climbed on the roof by stepping on the windowsill, and hid behind the chimney.

"I don't know what's wrong," Rob said.

"She's really amazing," Julian said.

"Yeah," Tom added, "even better than I thought."

The smoky air filled my lungs and I closed my eyes. I had written that song about how I needed to be found after my family died. About how I needed a Savior. How I needed someone; anyone. And how even when someone had the chance to come, it was too late. I had attempted to commit suicide three times in my life.

1: When Isaiah tried to embarrass me in front of the school and I was bullied.
2: When my parents and Emily died.
3: When I found out about Zess.

My eyes filled with tears, and I quietly climbed off the roof. I went through the back door, and curled up on my mattress, silent tears running down my face.

I was lost.
I was insecure.
He found me.
He was what I needed.
He was my Savior.
In a way, maybe I was his, too.

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