I know how to swim
Quite well actually
But right now, it seems
I am drowning
I cannot swim anymore
My mind is not working
And my arms are no longer
Moving
I've been treading in
Troubled waters
For too long
Now
My head is going under
But still I push
Kicking
Trying to find a way up
I've been pulled down
For way too long now
The voices are telling me
"Swim down, swim down"
But you are telling me
Something different
"Come to me my love"
"Come to me"
Your blue eyes look bluer
From down here
They shine with such care
And love
But the voices tell me
That they'll love me too
Forever and always
Unlike you
They tell me
That you're the one who
Put me in the waters
In the first place
I loved you too much
And then you let me go
The voices sound so honest
But I don't know where to go
Swim up to you?
Or down to them?
I cannot tread these trouble waters
For much longer
I will not go
Not today I tell the voices
I begin to swim up now
But they grab my ankles
"Stay with us,
We love you"
"No you don't"
And with that I push
You grab for me
And I know I am safe
"I'm sorry"
You say
"I'm sorry"
Words I don't here often
Especially not from you
But I forgive you
You saved me
You see
And the voices are no longer
In my mind
Hopefully they'll stay gone
But it seems they always
Find a way
To come again another day
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A Clutter of Teenage Thoughts
PoetryA place to let my thoughts run free, if you have a request for a poem leave it in my message box. Some of these poems are from my tumblr Im-a-fangirl-too. The first poem is in memory of you my loved unicorn I miss you everyday <3