Guests without time

Beckett's POV :

I woke up that day screaming, scared of the nightmare that was hunting me for the last two months, I still find it difficult to understand what happened that day , me drowning in my own blood and castle laying down there next to me unable to move or talk .
As I woke up I found castle sitting next to me worried about me , it is really nice to find someone there next to you when you are having a nightmare or when you are dying..
"Hey honey you are okay it's just a bad dream "Castle said ,
" Castle !?" I said confused, it was hard for me to realize that the dream is over.
" Yes babe it's me , i made you the breakfast you love, pancakes and an orange juice " Castle said while holding a tray full of the breakfast that i do really love , " Thank you Rick " I said ,
"Always " ricky said with a big smile
I tried to get up a little bit just to be able to put the tray on my lap and when i did i felt everything is moving in circles and I thought it was an earthquake but castle face was normal , In that moment I realized that it was only me who is feeling that way , rick looked at me in surprised and said " are you okay "
" yeah I felt a little bit dizzy"
" Do you want me to call the doctor " castle said worried about me
"Oh no babe no need for the doctor, I think I moved fast so I felt dizzy "
" you sure "
" yeah , nothing important "
" okay now eat you breakfast and then come to the living room, Alexis said she wants to talk to us about her college, she will be here in an hour I guess "
Rick said and then he left.
I was going to eat that delicious breakfast so I started with that orange juice that castle made but as soon as i drank it I felt that I wanted to throw up so i ran toward the bathroom, castle didn't hear me which is a good thing because I didn't want him to be worried, i was sure that i have cold or something but then the truth hit me like that bullet that got through my chest 5 years ago, " No way " that was the first thing that came cross my mind, Is it possible, Am I really...... pregnant !!!
I took a moment to think about it and then I realized that i was late , i may actually be pregnant .
At first I didn't know what to do , should i tell castle and then go with him to the doctor or should I keep it a secret till I'm sure !
I couldn't think straight but then I remembered that i have a pregnancy test that I hid in my drawer before the shooting , so I immediately took the test , i did everything as its written and then i sat down waiting for the result.
As i was waiting I thought about it , what if it was positive, what should i do , I know that I'm ready to have kids with rick but what about him , what if he wasn't ready! What if he didn't want any more children, he already have a daughter what if he don't want more.
The thoughts were killing me , I needed some positive thoughts but I couldn't think of any except the fact that I wanted a kid , Half an hour has passed by so I looked at the test , inside of me i was hoping to see two lines but I wasn't sure that castle would like to see those two lines , tears has filled my eyes as soon as I looked at the test , It was positive, I'm pregnant.. I'm really gonna have a child with rick .
" i have to tell castle " that was the first thing i had to do so I changed my pjs and went out to see castle sitting in the living room watching some old Star Trek movie
, i came close to him and he looked at me and said " oh you are dressed, come watch this movie with me it's really good "
" castle there's something I have to tell you "
" oh that something people say when they deliver bad news " he said with that gorgeous smile of him
" I'm serious " i said
" oh sorry, tell me what's wrong "
" I know why i was dizzy this morning rick , look I don't know what you are gon..."
" YOU ARE PREGNANT "
Rick interrupted me , " Yes " i said
He was looking at me without any facial expressions and for the first time ever i had no idea what was going on his mind , i was worried, what if he didn't want this baby! It was only seconds till that big smile jumped into his face ,
" Oh my god you are really pregnant kate , we are gonna have a kid , me and you , Our kid " He said
" So you want to have a kid with me , i mean are you ready " I asked
" Yes kate I'm ready, we both are "
I felt a huge relief as soon as I heard those words and I couldn't hold myself from kissing him so I crashed my lips into his , I think the kiss lasted for like a minute , we were really happy in that moment,
" so what do you think it will be a little rick or a little kate " rick said
" I think it will be a little kate , and you "
" oh no it will be a little cosmo "
I couldn't help but laugh , I knew that there's no way I'm gonna name my boy cosmo well if it was a boy .
I looked at castle and found him staring at me and I couldn't help it, I found myself staring at his blue ocean eyes , i was happy, happy because i met him 8 years ago , happy because he annoyed me and followed me since day 1 , I never thought that one day i will marry my favorite author, but look at me now , i think miracle do happen and magic is real because what me and castle have is magical.. I will Always be thankful for having him , i will always be thankful for finding Home ....
Always.