So the Sunday before tryouts, I legitimately wet the bed. Luckily I had a Goodnite on but it didn't make me feel better. I understood the wet dreams but not me wetting the bed. I hid it from Aunt Becky and April but I had to look it up. Apparently if you get stressed, you may start having accidents. To say I was stressed was an understatement.
With all of the bullying at school, I was nervous about what would happen when people found out I was going to be a cheerleader.
That day, was no different than others up until the final bell rang. Basically my life was a living hell.
After the bell rang, I headed to my changing room and put on some practice clothes.
When I went into the auxiliary gym, where they were holding tryouts, I saw a few girls from the Volleyball A team, some from the B team, and a few new girls that I hadn't talked to.
Then I saw Kelly and I approached her. She still hasn't found out who took that picture but assured me that she was still trying. She then asked about my outfit. I looked around and everyone's apparel was similar to mine, so I asked what she meant.
"Well why did you wear girl clothes? You can wear normal gym clothes."
I thought about it. I had been so used to having to wear those clothes to practice, it hadn't dawned on me that I could wear normal clothes.
I didn't have a change of clothes so today I would have to deal with my outfit. There wasn't really an image I had to protect anyways, people thought I was a freak. The new girls didn't even bat an eye at my appearance.
Tryouts went smoothly, my cheer coach said I would be a base so that's wear I practiced.
After practice, I went home. The rest of the week, I wore boy clothes.
Nobody got cut, so I became an official cheerleader. Of course the word got out so my school days didn't get any easier.
I spent more days crying than not crying. I tried to talk to Aunt Becky about transferring schools but there wasn't another school that I could get to. The place we lived only had one bus that came out but it was for a school that my aunt couldn't afford.
So I was stuck.