I Can't Change Me

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Chapter 9
Rachels pov:
I smiled at Quinn in the choir room as everyone laughed and cheered for us and then Finn got up and said,

"How could you? You cheated on me with my best friend!" He yelled.

"Finn please I wanted to tell you." Quinn said.

"Well you sure have a funny way of doing it!" He yelled at her.

"Finn , don't be mad at Quinn I should've have told you. " I said.

"Damn right you should've ya damn dyke!" He yelled.

"Finn!" Mr.Shue yelled .

I stopped and then Finn looked at me and everyone was silent.

"Rachel I'm..." I quickly ran out upset and crying .

I sat at the edge of the auditorium crying my eyes out . Finn has never been so mad at me before at least not enough to call me a name like that.

"Hey." He said walking in sitting next to me.

"Hey." I said wiping my tears.

"Look, I..I'm really sorry I called you that I was just angry I mean you did hookup with my girlfriend and turn her." He said.

"You have every right to be mad Finn. I didn't intend on this happening though. We were , we were in the moment and so she kissed me and I kissed her back but thats all it ever was until she told me she was gay too. I love you Finn, you're my bestest friend in the entire world and I want more than anything for you to just be happy for me and Quinn and for you to be happy, and I know you're upset right now but I don't want to lose you because of this . I am still your best friend , I still want the best for you." I said.

"Why do you like her then? I was with Quinn for 3 years Rachel, you helped me get ready for our first date together and now you're kissing her." He said.

"I loved her the first time I saw her Finn." I said .

"What?" He asked me.

"It was your first football game in fresh man year. I saw her in her cheerios uniform and her smiling and I fell in love with her. I never thought she would feel the same way so I let you be happy and be with her but I loved her and when she and I our together I'm am so happy. So , so happy and I'm sorry but I can't how I feel. I can't change me or who I am so you can be happy again. I promise you Finn I love you but as my best friend I am begging you to just hug me and tell me we're okay. I don't want this to be the thing that ends our relationship. " I cried.

He looked down with tears in his eyes,

"You really love her?" He asked me.

"More than I ever could imagine." I saod crying.

"Fine then be with her but I can't just forget this and go back to the way things were Rachel. Nothing will ever be the same because we are not cool or the same in fact , we are no longer friends." Finn said.

"Finn please." I cried.

"I'm sorry about what I said earlier but I just I need time. " He said and walked out .

I sobbed on the stage and Quinn came out and sat next to me and hugged me as I cried,

"I just lost my best friend." I said.

"I know, I am so sorry." She said and kissed my head.

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