I stand up from my spot on the floor.
I have been sitting in the same spot for two days. My mom tried to get me to eat but I couldn't.
I don't know why I kept going to school after I found out. I guess I just wanted to feel normal.
I only found out I had cancer in the time when I was ignoring Tyson and then I thought Tyson was dying when he was in the 'accident' and I was terrified and I wanted to push Tyson away because I didn't want him to feel what I felt but I couldn't help it, I love Tyson and I want to be with him and I shouldn't have said yes to being his girlfriend. He's right, I am selfish.
I get in the shower and let my mom drive me to school. It sounds crazy but I want to be with my friends and I want to be treated like a normal person. I don't want people to look at me and feel sorry for me because I am dying.
I climb out the car and walk into the school where people are walking around and laughing with their friends.
Jessica walks up to me with a smile, "Where have you been girl?" she asks and I shrug and walk to my locker, pulling it open.
She groans, "Okay well I have physics now. I'll see you later." she says and walks away. I haven't told Jessica either. I know, I'm probably the worst best friend ever but I didn't have the strength to tell anyone, not even her.
I walk down the hall and see Tyson. He is kissing Brittany... Again. Stupid son of a donkey.
I walk up to him, pull him away from Brittany and slap him straight across his face. He stares at me, shocked.
"What was that for?" Tyson asks and I turn to look at Brittany who is smirking at me.
I pull Tyson away from her and he waits for my answer. Brittany walks off and I sigh, looking at the floor. "I know I am selfish, Tyson, and you know what? So are you. I should have told you but I was scared. I found out last month that I am going to die! I won't be able to graduate. I won't be able to get married. I'm still a freaking virgin, Tyson! I have never been overseas. I will never get the chance to be excited over things like getting accepted into a university or finding out I am pregnant. I will never have kids. I will never get to go bungee jumping or swimming at a beach. I'm am going to die before I get the chance to live." I say, tears rimming my eyes.
"So can you maybe wait till after I die and then you can start making out with sluts again?" I spit and Tyson stares at me, not saying a word. Say something, damn it!
"I have liked you for a really long time, Melody." he tells me, watching for my reaction, "Five years." he whispers.
"I knew I never had a chance with you because you were so different. You were always happy and smiling and I finally got the chance to have you. You were finally mine and then I find out that you're..." Tyson wipes the tears away from his eyes and sniffs.
"I'm so sorry. I started freaking out because I'm not ready to loose you. I'm not ready to let you go and I panicked which I shouldn't have. I'm so so so sorry. I know it's not you're fault and you are so amazing. I love you so much, cupcake." he whispers and pulls me into a tight hug.
I breathe in his cologne and smile, a tear falling down my cheek. I don't want to leave. What if I'm not ready?
"Let's go somewhere." Tyson says and smiles at me.
"Somewhere? Like a park or something?" I ask.
"No. I want you to feel like you have lived. I want you to do anything you want and I will do anything to help you. I will always be here for you, Melody." he says.
I don't want to lose this.
I start crying really hard, "I don't want to die, Tyson." I say. I want to stay with my mom and my brother and Tyson and Jessica and I want to grow up the way Peter Pan never wanted to. I hug Tyson tightly and he brushes his fingers through my hair, not saying a word.
"Let's go to Paris." Tyson says after a while and I pull away from him with wide eyes.
"What? Are you crazy? How the hell would we do that?" I ask.
Tyson shrugs, "I'll pay." he states and smiles.
"Nope. No way, I won't let you. We can just go watch a French movie with subtitles or something, it I'll be like we're there." I say, shaking my head. I can't let Tyson do this for me.
"What about Mauritius?" Tyson asks and my jaw drops. Yup, it's official, he's insane.
"Please let me take you there. I wouldn't want to go with anyone else." Tyson asks and pouts. I smile and nod, pulling Tyson into another hug.
"You're amazing." I whisper and look up into his eyes. He leans down to kiss me and I move away from his lips, "Ew, you still have slut on your mouth." I state and Tyson just chuckles as I roll my eyes.
Lots of love and jelly tots- TPG
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Hating The Player || Wattys 2017Teen Fiction
|| Highest Rank - #1 in Teen Fiction and #5 in Romance || Melody Carson has been in the same class as Tyson McCannon since primary school. She's watched him play with girls, set the school on fire, skip classes, prank teachers, smoke behind the sch...