In Between

chapter 1

Jen's POV

"I can't I can't do this Cassy " I managed to say while hyperventilating .It was the first day of school the first day of my senior year and due to my extreme nerves and problems I was freaking out . "yes you can! get yourself together is it always going to be like this ? Are you going to let your past haunt you forever ?" Cassy asked looking me straight in the eyes , she knew my answer I didn't want to let my past control me now. However , It always happens every single year of high school I'll get the exact same feeling before walking to school.

Yes, I've managed to control it but it was still there. I would feel it every morning the anxiety the sadness. Trying to come out of my chest and destroy everything I've worked so hard to accomplish. To keep it hidden and start again. Cassy was the only other than my family to know about it and to everyone else in school i was just a normal girl in the back of the class. She suddenly interrupted my thoughts and pulled into a hug "you'll be fine".

It was time to keep doing what I've done all these years and fake a smile as I walked to school .

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I am currently in the schools cafeteria about to get breakfast with Cassy right behind me. We both grab uncrushable and orange juice and start heading to our table. All our friends are already there and seeing them makes feel that maybe school won't be so bad. Don't get me wrong I am a straight "A" student and I do like school but its my secrets and memories from the past that I'm still not free of. "Sooo how was your summer girl I missed you so much" my friend Alice asks in her sassy tone pulling me out of my trance. "It was fine a bit boring but at least I didn't have to worry about essays and project every day but how was yours did you meet any cute guys over
there " I replied with a wink.

"That's true and of course i did you thought I was going to go all the way to Europe and not find a guy .ha !your funny" she laughed.

"Well "--

"I know Jen I mean we're talking a about Alice right here she's hooked up with half the guy in school", My best friend Michael said interrupting me.

"Hey!! I'm not a whore if that what you are trying to say " Alice yelled.

"I'm not, you know i'm just playing right I love you " Michael says to her. There just friends but they always seem to be arguing and getting on each others nerves, but deep inside I think that they like each other a lot but are to afraid to say it . I mean we all see it except for them.

Suddenly i hear the cafeteria doors open behind me and judging by the way everyone's looking and the girls adjust their outfits I know exactly who has walked in. Meet Jake Williams the bad boy of the school and also known as the hottest guy there is. I'm not gonna lie he is very close to perfect with his perfect smile , black hair , thick eyebrows, perfect lips and dark brown eyes. He is extremely good looking. However he's also mean, arrogant and self centered. He's basically a jerk that doesn't care about anything or anyone. Like I said not perfect very close but not quite.

He walks in getting everyone's attention even mine I just don't show it I don't turn around like everyone else. I always ignore him he doesn't matter to me because honestly why would he ,I hate the way he is. He thinks that everyone loves him and wants him. I won't give him that satisfaction. I don't talk to him or even try to get to know him and he doesn't even acknowledge my presence its been like this for the past three years, and I expect this year to be no different.

However, when he walks past by me and turns around giving me a creepy smirk I can't help but have a strange feeling in my gut telling me that maybe I'm not so invisible to him after all.

And that scares me to death.

Hey guys hope enjoyed this first chapter and I hope you keep on reading once I update . I also ask for you to please don't judge after all this is the first book I've written.

Thank you