The house no longer had the same cozy feel as it used too, it felt cold and empty as if the spark you and Gerald once shared had gone out. You went to bed alone, woke up alone, had meals alone, it felt as if you were the only one living within the confines of your home. It was depressing.
It seemed as if Gerald was slowly starting to distance himself from you. On the rare occasions when you were awake when he got home, he would barely acknowledge your presence before grabbing a beer and heading into the basement to do whatever the hell he does at 1 in morning. You would eventually get tired of waiting for him to come up and go to bed, him joining you when you were fast asleep. He used to hold you when you slept. That was then, now there is always a fair amount of space between your bodies. The warmth and love you used to feel had evaporated, the air was now thick and heavy, filled with unexplainable tension and sadness.
Deep down you understood it was probably because he was such a busy man, his schedule was hectic. Although that doesn't excuse the time he has off, he could be spending it with you but instead chooses to go out and party. Of course you two still spend some time together, but usually it's not much. You still cherish it though.
You stood at the kitchen island decorating the batch of cupcakes you made for your nieces birthday when Gerald walked through the front door. He didn't pay much attention to you as he removed his jacket.
"Where were you?" You calmly ask, sprinkling edible glitter over the freshly iced cupcakes.
"I was out with Bebe." He said sitting down on the couch and removing his shoes. You scoffed.
"Of course you were." You said shaking your head.
"Whats that suppose to mean?" He asked adjusting his watch and leaning against the arch way that separated the kitchen and the living room.
"You're just always with her, ya know?" You sighed. "You probably have sex with her on tour." You joked.
"Are you serious?" Gerald ask, his voice filling with anger. You rolled your eyes as you placed the cupcakes in a container and sat them in the fridge. "Why the hell would you say something like that? Why would you think something like that?" You turned you head to the side, not quite looking at him.
"It's hard not to think, G. You're always gone and when you're home you're spending time with Bebe. I can't help but make assumptions." You said looking down and messing with the hem of your sweater.
"I don't- why would I do something like that when I can someone so amazingly beautiful waiting for me at home?" Gerald said walking closer to you. "I know I'm gone all the time and I know I should start spending more time with you. But even through all of this you still stuck by my side. You didn't break up with me or give up on us." he wrapped his arms around your waist.
You leaned back against his chest and rubbed his arms as you swayed side to side.
"I'm sorry for whatever I've done to make you think I would ever cheat on you, I could never hurt you like that. Ever." Gerald pulled you closer and placed a kiss on your head. You turned around and wrapped your arms around him.
"I love you and I'm sorry too." You said burying your face in his chest.
"I love you too, babygirl."