Also, I know in the previous picture of the crew. Keegan has long hair and totally looks different from this picture, it's bc I can't find any other picture of the other dude so I changed it.
"You're unbelievable." I fake a laugh shaking my head, trying to stop the tears from rolling down my cheeks. Matt gives me a confused look, does he not get it? Is he blind?
"What? What are you talking about?" He stutters a bit.
"I love you, Matthew Lee Espinosa." I blurted out. I can't hold it in, I need to let it out and confess my feelings for this boy. The boy who will never love me back.
"You.. You love me?" He looks at me with no facial expression.
"Yes, I do." I nod, crying. "Not only as a friend but something more too. You don't feel the same, huh?" I swallow the lump in my throat.
"I don't know.." He says slowly, I nod slowly wiping my tears.
"Then why would you kiss me, hold my hand and stuff like that?" I ask him.
"I-I don't know." He shrug his shoulders.
"If you're not in love with me, please stop making you think you are." I tell him sobbing, I started walking away from him but he yelled my name.
"Jannalyn!" He yells, I blink the turn around. "Wha- Why are you in l-love with.. me?" He says.
"Cause Matt you are the most amazing person I've met. You've been with me through ups and downs, you always make me smile, you make me feel thins thing in my stomach, you make me want to kiss you all over your cute ass face and I honestly think about you a lot more than I should." I sighed.
"So if you feel those things when I'm with you then tell me." He doesn't do anything, he just stares at me with no words coming out of his mouth.
"Well okay then." Then I walk away.
When they noticed me, Andrea comes running to me hugging me as she rub my back to comfort me. Everyone was around me, except for Matt, Rachel and Claire. I see Rachel and Claire looking at me, Rachel crosses her arms with an evil smirk on her face and Claire sighing.
"We heard you guys arguing.." Andrea spoke.
"We heard you.. We weren't eavesdropping.." Ryan says slowly making me laugh.
"It's okay guys." I fake a small smile and hug them. "Now I gotta get some sleep, I'm tired as fuck." I stated rubbing my eyes.
"Are you going to sleep with Mathew?" Andrea asks me.
"Err, I don't know. I guess I will.. He's not here anyways." I shrug my shoulders hugged her one last time then crawl into my tent getting ready to sleep.
After getting comfortable, I didn't want to think about anything that will make me cry myself to sleep. So I just closed my eyes drifting off to sleep.
June 9, 2016
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Best Friend + Matthew EspinosaFanfiction
[ COMPLETED: MARCH 2016 - JUNE 2018 ] ••• "You know what's a stupid idea if you were best friends with someone?" My heartbeat quicken. "What?" I cleared my dry throat. "Dating them. I mean, dating your best friend is kind of stupid. Like, what if...