"I don't know." I've never felt so much pain in my life, not even when Alex and I broke up back in New York.
I know Alex was just trying to be honest and I could see it in her eyes that she was having a hard time admitting this to me... But also to herself. But I can't be mad at her, she loved this Anna girl and she was forced to leave her, off course they have unfinished business and that wasn't Alex's fault. "I..." I didn't know what to say now. I wanted to yell at her for not telling me, but then again I can't be angry, she was just trying to move on, it's not like she cheated on me. "... I need some air." I didn't know where to go, I just know that I have to get out of here... Now.
I turned around to leave the room but I felt Alex grab my arm gently making me stop. "Melissa, please, talk to me."
"What do you want me to say?" I turned to look at her. Her eyes showed concern and her eyebrows were raised. "You still love her Alex and there's nothing I can do."
"Yes, but I love you too."
I can't put her in this position, I needed time to think. "Alex I need time to process this, we'll talk later ok?" By the look she had on her face I could tell that she was worried, so I leaned in and gave her a quick kiss reassuring her that I didn't want to fight.
"Ok." She didn't like it, but she agreed. I know she loves me and cares about me and honestly I've never loved anyone like I love Alex and that's why I need some space to process what she just told me. And deep down, I know she needs the space too.
I was walking a long hallway, full of paintings, at the end of the hallway there were two stairs opposite to each other, this place was way too big and I think I just got lost. "Need help?" I looked to my right and saw Anna walking up to me with a kind smile. "I used to get lost here all the time, it took me like 6 months to know my way around the Palace." She said. She had the kindest smile on her face, she really looks like a good person, I can see why Alex fell for her. I just noticed that she had been looking at me, waiting for me to say something and all I've done is stare at her in confusion. "I'm sorry if I interrupted something, I thought you needed help going somewhere. I'm going to leave-"
"No. I'm sorry, I just... Spaced."
"It's ok, I do that too." She responded softly. Fuck, why is she so nice? It would be easier for me to just... Hate her, but she's just too nice. "You look like you need some air." I did.
"Actually yeah, I was wondering where the garden was."
She walked in front of me and gave me another kind smile. "Follow me."
I walked behind her, this Palace was huge and the fact that Alex called this place home still amazed me, I used to dream of this place, I always admired the royal families of Europe and their old school fashion. I remember watching them on TV, the weddings, their appearances and interviews, ever since I watched Cinderella I've always wanted to be a princess a live in a castle, little did I know that I'd be here today. I saw the beautiful garden in front of me when a cold breeze hit me, it was late November and it was already pretty cold, so I tried to wrap my arms around my body to stay warm. "Here." I turned to look at Anna and saw that she was offering me her jacket.
"Oh thanks, but I'm fine." I responded, but she refused to accept my answer. She approached me and wrapped the jacket around me, she was a little taller than me so the jacket was a little big, but I immediately felt warmth when she put in on me. "Thanks."
"No problem." She smiled and directed us to a bench in the middle of the garden. "You're very lucky to have her."
I quickly looked at her with a confused expression on my face, did she know? How? Either way, I'm going to play it cool. "What do you mean?"
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We both laughed. Man if only I knew what life had in store for me. "Do you ever think about the first time we met?" I asked. "All the time." She had her back towards me, but my arms were still wrapped around hers, so my head was resting in her right...