An excerpt from a book I will never write

Part 1

"He might be the sun but even the sun can burn you"

"It was only a game to you and I lost"

"I waited for you. I waited all night and many more nights after that. And I'm willing to keep waiting for you"

"I've got another week ahead of me, and the only thing getting me through is knowing I'll get to see you at the end of it"

"He is the love of my life, I don't know if I'm the love of his life. All I know I'm late. It's too late"

"Why must our story be a tragedy and not a love story"

"It's because you want him to fix you up. You want him to embrace you so hard it'll make all of your broken pieces snap back together and stay there for a considerable amount of time. You want him to call you in the middle of the night, just right before your eyes close, and tell you that it has been you all along. You would kill to see him walking closer to you, closer and closer carrying in his hands all the love he could give. But it doesn't work like that. It just doesn't"

"My biggest mistake wasn't falling for you. It was thinking you had fallen for me too"

"Silly girl, he doesn't care"

"I wish I had never told you I loved you. Love is better kept a secret anyway. Our love would never happen, we are the moon and the earth, orbiting but much too far to touch. Our love wasn't the sunshine type, it was the dark, underground feeling that we only ever talked about on cloudy days. Our love was the kind where our hearts skipped out of our hands and we didn't pay our taxes, and everyone came after us but we never kissed. Our love was never love at all. I wish I had never told you, because I know how you smell in the winter, and I know how your heart aches and how your soul sings, but I cannot ever hold you at night"
- love is something I whisper in the dark

"I want to hate you, but at the same time I want to love you for the rest of my life

"And in that moment I swear we were infinite"

"How am I supposed to be loved by you when no part of me belongs to the everlasting"

"Yes you are the moon. And if the darkness is what you need to shine brightly I will gladly become it."

"It only took minutes
For the world to stop turning and time to never exist again
The world became desolate
No life would be seen again
Nothing even existed anymore
No summers at the beach, with the fresh ocean breeze
Or spring with beautiful flowers, and smell of fresh soul
No fall with warm breeze, or the scent of pumpkin pie
No winger with snowfalls, with children building snowmen
Because it only took minutes
For the world to stop turning
And time to never exist again
All that was left was;
Smoke and silence"
- just like that, it could end

"I didn't want to go to sleep last night, but I had to. But every few hours or so, I'd wake up again, hoping that there was some kind of message from you, anything from you.

And every time I woke up, I waited a little, just to see if you'd wake up randomly too and decide to message me
But you didn't"

"Can you really let go of someone you never did hold? Can you somehow forget something that you never did? Can you really say goodbye to an imaginary life? Can there really be an end when it never did begin?"

"I think of you so often you have no idea"

"He loves me, he loves me not"

"Sometimes I sit in the rain thinking about how you were fire and I was water and wonder how two so opposite could have shared a love so intense but so impossible"

"He reminded me of the sun. It was the way he he was always there in the morning welcoming me to a new day. The way he could light up any room with no effort at all. The way I needed to soak him up in order to survive. But there was one difference, it wasn't pretty when he left. It wasn't beautiful or gorgeous like the sunset after a long day; it was painful. That was when I realized that the sun was sure as hell pretty but if you get too close, you'd get hurt"

"...and suddenly the radiance — given to him by the sun because the sun loves him so much — would bounce off the walls and strike everybody's hearts instantaneously. ...his radiance striked her heart just the same – maybe even more explosively.

and she couldn't understand how that was even possible."

"Maybe the world wasn't ready for you and me"

"If moving on means letting go of all of that, I can't say I'm ready"

"Ever since I met you, no one else has been worth thinking about"

"I think what hurt me the most when you left wasn't the fact that I still loved you but the way you had made me fall in love with you."

"How many nights have you wished someone would stay?"

"She loved him so much she spent night and nights wishing upon stars for him while he spent night dreaming about someone else"

"This isn't home. You are home. And right now, I'm lost at sea."

"When I first saw you my heart wasn't ready"

"The moral of this story is that no matter how much we try, no matter how much we want it... some stories just don't have a happy ending"

"There's gotta be a heaven cause I've already done my time in hell"

"I wrote your name on the bullet so everyone knows you were the last thing that went through my head"

"You're not even mine and I can't stop thinking about how terrified I am of losing you"

"I was doing great but then they said your name"

"Your name plays in my head like a song on repeat when I try to sleep at night"

"This isn't right, but it isn't wrong. Maybe in another time, under brighten stars, a fuller moon will gravitate us towards each other. But right now? We are anachronism. Maybe one day we won't be"
- yet it feels like tomorrow will never come

"I'm so in love with you. And I have tried to distract myself with strangers tongues and drowning memories of you with tequila.

I don't want to be the girl that loves the boy that will never love her back."
- yet here I am, drinking so much I can convince myself it's your tongue

"Please save me from my mind"

"I still love you"

"Their love burned so brightly and furiously that it was only a matter of time until it burned out"

"I should stop wishing for you to come back, because you aren't coming back, you left for a reason and I guess that reason will always be here"

"10 August 2015
He is drunk. Me too. But that doesn't matter. I feel way too much for him. I doubt that it's good for me. To let this happen. With him. Perhaps I'm to fragile for that. For having those feelings. It depends on what he wants. Although right now there is nothing he wants more than to sleep"

"She was loved widely but not deeply"

"Every time I daze off,
I think of you
But I will never tell you.
And when you admit that
You do the same,
I will simply smile,
Thinking "if only you knew""

"I just can't keep waiting and holding onto what little hope I have... it's killing me"

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One of these is altered it's the one that says "10 August 2015" I changed it to that date I forgot what the original one was so yeah.