This is a small update, its just to inform you on what happened to Amber and its just a story filler, its not much. I wanted to give you guys something so you wont have to wait so long for an update, which you still kindof did (Sorry!) I have a few more chapters planned then the story will be over :(
Dedicating this to Ceeeyyyddaaa and everyone else whom commented <3
BTW, I LOVE this photo of Cristiano. Idk why, I just do!
"Yes I do, I believe
That one day I will be, where I was
Right there, right next to you
And it's hard, the days just seem so dark
The moon, and the stars, are nothing without you
Your touch, your skin, where do I begin?
No words can explain, the way I'm missing you
The night, this emptiness, this hole that I'm inside
These tears, they tell their own story
You told me not to cry when you were gone
But the feeling's overwhelming, it's much too strong
Can I lay by your side, next to you, you
And make sure you're alright
I'll take care of you
And I don't want to be here if I can't be with you tonight" Sam Smith sung. Tears rolled down my cheeks as the song played on.
I looked up to see the woman that was identical to the love of my love standing at the head of the grave crying her eyes out. I wanted to be there for her because I knew this all had to be hard on her but I was too numb to do anything. I stood there and watched as the gravediggers shoved dirt onto the casket. Tears formed in my eyes knowing how much pain Danielle was going through. The lost of a parent sucks. I know I was a teenager when I lost my dad and it hurt so much. I literally could feel her pain. I knew what she had to do which was saying goodbye and letting go.
Saying goodbye and letting go were two different things. Goodbye is just and expression of good wishes when parting ways or ending a conversation, or so the dictionary says. People often think goodbye is permanent but its not. Saying goodbye to someone is insinuating that you will meet again. It's the thought of seeing each other later on in life and being able to share laugh and stories about ones. Goodbye is never truly goodbye.
Letting go is an action. It is the act of being okay with never seeing said person ever again. It is being okay with the knowledge of never seeing one another again, never bumping into someone and sharing the details of ones lives.
Both, saying goodbye and letting go, in itself is a very hard thing to do. It takes a lot of courage to be able to with stand both. That is the part of life that I hate. It takes away all positivity and things good in the world. It tears me apart when it is someone that I love. It puts me in a terrible funk that I just can't seem to get out of.
My feet began to move me forward to her and I wrapped an arm around her neck. I gave her a kiss on the top of her head and rested my head there. Sergio couldn't be here with her today because of his children. I came to support her because with Anna not being in a great state to look after Danielle I knew I had to do it. I was doing it not only for Danielle but for Amber as well.
When the doctors took her off the Machines and out of the medically induced coma she slowly opened her eyes. Everyone was overjoyed. I had never been so happy in my entire life. Seeing those beautiful green eyes again gave me something that I never thought I needed which was hope.
Hope for the family and life I had envisioned. Hope that everything will be all right and that my children will grow up with a mother. Hope that I will be reunited with the love of my life.
But, our joy was short lived. With the brain damage that Amber had suffered she lost a lot of her functioning. The part of her brain, known as the primary motor cortex, that controls her movement have been damaged. The doctors had to do a couple of surgeries to fix that but then she has to learn how to walk again, do simple things like feed herself, and among other things.
Her long-term memory was fine, she remembered everyone but her short-term memory was a bit damaged meaning there will be moments where she would forget things. The doctor said that with patience and time she would go back to being fully functioning.
I was just glad that she was alive. That's all that matters to me. I don't care how long it takes but I will help her get back to functioning on her own. I promised her I would be there for her every step of the way.
So, Amber is alive!
What do you think will happen next?