Lights, Camera, Action! | Louis Tomlinson

CHAPTER 35- Torn

LOUIS'S P.O.V.

I was kissing her. There's no turning back now. I held her so tightly that I was afraid she'll vanish. My hands made their way to her back and hers made their way to my neck.

I liked the feeling she gave me when she ran her hands through my hair. Tingles ran through my spine and I was in awe at the sensation she still gave me.

I glanced at her, and sure enough, she was feeling this as much as I did. I couldn't help but smile at the kiss. It was amazing and I can't help but reminisce all that we had.

After a while, we let go. I was out of breath and so was she. I smiled at her and she reciprocated my action. My heart fluttered when I saw a blush forming on her cheeks.

"Um- uh...", she stammered, obviously still speechless about all this. I couldn't blame her, though. I was still also trying to process everything in my own head. It happened so quickly.

She didn't say anything anymore, and continued rubbing the towel on my torso. I also kept quiet, since there was nothing more to say. I believe the kiss speaked for itself in a way.

We stayed like this, in awkward silence for a while. I couldn't say take it anymore, so I spoke up.

"Katie, say something please.", I said, ny voice cracking at the end. She looked at me and believe it or not, tears were brimming her eyes.

Wasn't she supposed to be happy?

"Louis, what do you want me to say?", she asked weakly. I held her hands and stared at her, "That we still have a shot. That we can still make it work. That you still want me." By now, I was in the verge of tears.

I don't cry over women, so why is she an exception?

You know the answer, Lou.

"Louis, tell me, is there still something left for me? After breaking up, I couldn't help but be disappointed that you threw everything we had away, just because of a stupid conclusion!", Katie stated, her voice rising.

"I was stupid, okay? Yeah, it was stupid, but people make stupid decisions in life. And I ended up doing just that.", I said.

"Yeah, you did. And it cost us our relationship.", she fired back.

"So what are you implying? You want to blame it all on me then?"

"It is all on you. Remember when you kissed Janna before she was your girlfriend?"

I fell silent after that.

"You told me you didn't kiss her back. And I believed you. Did I jump into conclusions? Yes, I also did. But I let you explain. But you..." she trailed off. "You didn't even give me a second glance when you left me."

"Okay, I was wrong-", I was cut off.

"I'm not done! Let me finish.", she said, throwing her hands up in the air. I held my head down, letting her speak. Letting me finally take in all she has to throw at me.

"Then, all of a sudden, you come marching back into my life? You have the nerve to tease me now and kiss me, and give this a shot all over again. But I never even heard from you for a year? How crazy is that, Lou?! You tell me!", she said, breaking down.

"Tell me, because I don't know what to believe anymore.", she added, wiping away her tears.

"You break my heart, then expect me to just magically repair it again for you when you feel like giving it another try? What am I, a broken car?!"

I didn't speak. I was too weak to, anyway. All she said was true. I can't believe I was so selfish. All I thought of was what I wanted to happen.

I didn't even stop to think if she felt the same.

"Then what happens after this? You find me talking innocently with another guy, then your jealous kicks in again, you start assuming things and then throw all away we had again."

"I can't keep this cycle, Lou. Sure when you left, it hurt. It hurt so much I felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest. You can't keep doing this to me, Louis. Our memories are not just some pieces of paper that you can just throw away when you feel like doing it.", she said.

"I don't want to be hurt anymore, you get me? I'm so freaking tired of it."

After that, it grew silent again. She was there, with eyes looking as red as ever. Then I was here, looking so vulnerable in front of her.

What's wrong with me?

I finally had this beautiful girl in my arms, but I let her go just because of my stupid jealousy.

I can't believe I was so stupid.

Yet, I finally found the courage to ask her this one question that's been bothering me for weeks now.

"Katie, I'm not forcing you on anything. I... I just want to ask you, will you... still give me a chance?"

She looked at me, debating whether she should answer or leave me hanging.

"I... I don't know, Louis. You're so difficult sometimes."

And with that she left the room.

I just sat there on her bed, taking it all in. I can't believe that all I thought of was myself. It didn't even cross my mind is SHE wanted to get back together.

Her answer, though, left me hanging. I don't know if she doesn't want to give it a shot anymore or she's too scared to even try.

Either way, I'm the one who ends up alone.

Once again, I get my heart torn in two.

A/N: Aww... this was sad. Is Katie really giving up on Louis? I hope not, right fellas? You'll find out in the next chapters, though. Well, 2 more to go. Thanks for all the reads guys and gals! Please like, vote and comment! Bye!