Second Chances

Chapter:01

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Chapter:01 Published 08/01/2018

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Playlist:
Cascada: Everytime we touch
Savage Garden: Truly Madly Deeply

Gabriella

Reality is cruel. It's something that keeps you on your feet when you are in a fantasy world.

So just like any person, reality hit me like a ton of bricks when I least expected it. In my life happiness never lasted too long. Why? Well, because it always goes away. But when James entered my life, it all changed. For once I thought that this time happiness would last. But I as wrong. It never did, it always ends.

 James was in a hospital bed. He promised that he would never leave my side, but I guess promises are meant to be broken. In the end I blame myself because I knew this would happen and yet I chose to believe it that this time it would be different.

"Please don't cry baby, it pains me to see you like this" He whispered. His calloused hands holding my hands. 

"I'm trying but I can't. It should be me in that bed and not you. You don't deserve this...I do" As I spoke his thumb made its way to my cheek and began stroking the tears away.

"Don't speak like that, you out of all people deserve the best life you can have. I want you to know that the past two years were the best of my life, and if it means that I would have to be in a hospital bed after spending time with you, then trust me when I say that I would go back in time just to spend my time with you all over again, because you will be my world no matter what happens". More tears escaped my eyes as soon as he said that because I was mad. Mad that he was suffering because of me. Mad that he would die and leave me knowing that I would never see him again.

"How can you say that? Everyone that I have ever loved has died or left, and now you are going to leave as well." Even after you promised me you wouldn't. I wanted to say those last words but I restrained myself from doing it. By now I was sure I sounded selfish but it was the truth. Nevertheless I continued. "But in the end I don't regret spending time with you either. That is why you need to fight hard so that you can make it out of here-" Was all I said before I was cut off by James.

"I'm sorry for making a promise that I was unable to keep. But Gabriella, sweetie we both know that I don't have much time left, so please don't make it harder for yourself". He was right, we both knew that he had little time left.

"You're right." I told him. I refused to believe it but we both knew what the reality was. For a while we just stood there, holding each other like there was no tomorrow for us, because maybe there would be no tomorrow. "Do you remember how we first met? How mad I was when you spilled coffee on me just to get my attention, specially since it was my favorite shirt." I said breaking the silence that engulfed us. 

"Of course, how could I forget the best day of my life, plus I had to do it otherwise I would never see you again. So, it was either spilling coffee on you or be rude. And something told me that you would prefer having coffee on your shirt then having a guy be rude to you." We laughed thinking of the happy moments that soon would become memories.

"I love you" I said knowing that this would probably be the last time I said those words. He didn't say anything back and just held me tighter. He didn't need to say anything. I already knew his answer all too well.

After a while both of us stopped crying and we both sat into a comfortable silence thinking of those happy times until James spoke up.

"Sweetie can you promise me something" By the tone of his voice I knew that I wouldn't like what he was going to say next.