While I was gone I got a request to do a
"When you're depressed scenario"
I never turn down a scenario no matter what it is
but since depression is something that I can't make funny
I wanted to do something special.
"____?" You looked up at Sally. "What are you doing?" She tilted her head at the sight of the bloody razor sitting next to you. You sat there curled up, hugging your knees. You didn't want to answer...what would a little eight year old think of you? How would it help anyone? How would you help anyone...? You won't....You can't....
"Nothing....nothing at all...." You kept your head down and tried to hide any soft noise from your crying but she still notices your body softly shaking. Luckily, she can tell when someone wants to be left alone and quietly stepped out, closing the door behind her.
She hummed a song as she skipped into the kitchen. She sat at the table with Charlie and all eyes landed on her when she still hadn't touched her food ten minutes into dinner.
"Sally? Is something troubling you?" Slenderman asked Sally.
"Well...." The room was silent. Even Jeff didn't interrupt. "___ was in her room... and she was doing something... odd." Dark let out a snicker and everyone turned to him.
"Perv..." Emma elbowed him in the side. Slenderman sighed and gestured for Sally to continue, drawing all attention back to her.
"She was....crying. I think..." Sally said hesitantly as Silver let out a sad sigh.
"Was there anything else...you know....odd?" E.J tilted his head slightly, concern filled his voice.
"W-well..." Sally looked dow in confusion and worry. "She had a bloody razor next to her..."
Gasps and 'oh my god's filled the room. A few had open mouths and Slenderman raised both of his 'eyebrows'.
BEN, Masky and Hoody were already walking out of the kitchen.
"Where do you think you're going?" L.J asked.
"To ____'s room." Rake replied, quickly getting up and following the other three.
"Everyone else go sit in the living room. I'll clean up real quick and we'll have a talk with ___." Emma announced.
Everyone nodded in agreement.
I was still curled up by my bed when I heard my door open slightly.
"___? You okay...?" I looked up to see BEN, Masky and Hoody at my door. I wanted to say yes but how would I pull that off? I lowered my head back to the ground and shook it slowly.
"No.....I'm n-not okay. I was never okay..." I began crying heavily, using my hands to try and cover it up. I heard footsteps run up to my right before I felt more than one pair of arms wrap around me. There was a moment of silence but another pair of footsteps broke it.
"....I wanna join...." It was Rake's voice and before anyone could say anything, two more arms joined in the hug.
"We should go down to the living room..." Masky mumbled. I could almost feel Hoody nodding in agreement.
"Yeah...you kind of have some explaining to do..." BEN chimed in. I sighed as my stomach dropped but I nodded.
I sat in the empty chair, staring down at the ground. I could feel all eyes on me and I swear it felt like they were burning holes through me. I hated it.
"____...What's going on?" Slendy asked sternly.
"Yeah, what the hell?" Sonic crossed his arms. Whoah...harsh....that hurt.
Toby tried swatting at him but as he raised his arm he twitched and snapped his neck into an awkward position, making him stumble and fall over. I was so upset I didn't even want to laugh at that. I didn't even want to be happy.
I watched Red and Dr.Smiley go over and help him. Dr.Smiley helping someone without killing them? Wow...I guess it must be serious...wait...they gathered around here for me?
"Yes we are ___." Oh yeah...mind reading... Geez Slendy. Privacy please.
"Wanna explain?" Jeff asked.
"There's nothing to explain..." I mumbled, trying my best to position my arm so noone would see any scars. Not good enough. I shuddered at the words. Not good enough...
I heard Silver lightly clear his throat. Eyes turned to him and you could see he was nervous. "um....y-your arm...." He pointed and quickly turned his gaze to the floor. All attention went to my arm and either eyes widened or jaws dropped. Oh no...I didn't want to know what they saw but...I already did know...And it's my fault.
Slendy shot up and pointed to Masky and Hoody. "You two. Go get the First Aid kit. Quickly." They both nodded and ran off, returning with a large First Aid kit not a minute later and handing it to Slendy.
He pulled out a couple of wipes and glided them across my arm. When he pulled the wipes away I caught a glimpse of all the blood he had wiped up. I was snapped out of my gaze when I felt a stinging sensation on my arm. I looked down to see Slendy holding a medicated cloth to the cuts. I hissed from the pain and he quickly pulled away.
"Please...explain." Rake said. He had a worried look. I had a sudden feeling of pity...I've been so selfish to do this to them.
"I don't want to talk about it...there are so many reasons." I slowly shook my head.
"What the hell do you mea-" Slendy shushed Sonic before he could finish.
"___ can tell us when she's one hundred percent comfortable." Slendy said as he bandaged my arm.
"Is this the first time..?" Emma asked. I hadn't even noticed she was in the room.
I slowly shook my head again. Shame suddenly came over me.
"Have you ever tried...you know.......killing yourself?" Smiley asked.
"No...I've thought of it though. But...whenever I think of you guys, something tells me not to..." I mumbled, slightly looking up at them. I expected them to be angry but...they weren't. They had a soft, worried look.
"Good." Everyone looked at Emma.
"What do you mean 'good'?" Jeff questioned her with an irritated yet concerned tone of voice.
"She hasn't tried killing herself yet because of us. She thinks of us as a reason to live." Emma replied. There was a long moment of silence.
"Look....Everyone falls.. They trip and it hurts a lot. When you fall so many things go through your head, so many thoughts and feelings! Some people don't have anyone to help them up and that hurts a lot... some aren't strong enough to lift themselves and that hurts more........Real strength isn't about how much weight you can lift or how many tears you can hold in...Real strength is being able to gain enough sanity to pick yourself back up. If this isn't her first time... she's picked herself up more than once. She's one of the strongest people I know." Emma finished.
There was a long moment of silence before everyone turned back to me.
"____. We care for you very, very much." Slendy said. Everyone agreed by either letting out a quick 'yeah' or just nodding in agreement.
"If you ever want to talk about it please come to one of us but just please...please please please never do it again." Slendy pleaded. I looked around the room and scanned all the worried faces staring back at me. It's true. They do care for me. A lot of people don't have this much...I'm so lucky...
I turned back to Slendy. "I promise."
Sighs filled with relief filled the room as everyone rushed over to me and surrounded eachother in a group hug. I love these guys.
If you ever feel alone, someone cares. You can always leave a comment or message and I'll be happy to talk to you about an issue you're having. Whether it's at home or school, I know how it feels to cut or attempt suicide so it's fine. You're not alone. I promise.
Love you guys~