I Have Loved You Since We Were 18

Chapter #2

Chapter #2:
After about an hour of getting ready th show had started. I was just about to walk the runway for the first time and I was wearing a beautiful butterfly-like lingerié piece (Like Kendall wore). The music started to play and that was my que to walk. I took a deep breathe and began to walk. As I walked down that runway my smile grew 10x bigger. Right when I had reached he end of the runway and spun I spotted Liam there. I hesitated as our eyes met but let my smile widen and continued to walk. After that every time I had walked out I could feel his gaze on me. Finally the end walk came where we all walk out together. I walked out with Gigi and we both smirked as we walked. She pushed me forward a bit and I took a bow and she smiled at me as we walked back, "Liam Payne couldn't take his eyes off you girl!" I blushed and pushed her playfully as we went backstage to change for the after party. I had helped all the other girls with their hair and dresses that I was the last one to get ready. "You guys go ahead! I'll catch up!" I quickly changed into my beautiful white dress (picture above) and then touched up my hair and my makeup. I pulled my heels on and grabbed my bag before walking out. Right when my car had reached the venue I got a phone call. "Honey you're date and new boyfriend will be there soon so get out of the car and wait behind the curtains. We're gonna surprise you with who it is but have fun tonight and make the chemistry look real!" As soon as I hung up I heard his accent chime in. "You did amazing tonight..." He scratched the back of his neck nervously. "Ugh...thanks," he smiled a bit as we both stood there a bit awkwardly. "Finally got to walk the Victoria Secret runway like you've always wanted...." I smiled to myself, "yeah, I did..." He huffed and let out a breathe. "Will you...can we just-" he put his hand out towards me, "come in with me, we can start over?" I shook my head, "Li-it's, it's not that easy..." He urged his hand towards me, "but it can be." He looked at me with hopeful eyes and I suddenly became very self conscious. "I'm supposed to be waiting for someone...." He huffed, "look all I see right now is you and me and if whoever he is wants to come in later to see you then he can but walk this carpet with me and we can see how things go..." I reluctantly took his hand. "I always could persuade you..." I laughed and nudged him as we stepped onto the carpet. I smiled as I thought to myself, fuck my management, I missed Liam and I want my friend back....I can date whoever my 'boyfriend' is supposed to be another day! Let me be with Liam tonight. I smiled as I had my arm linked/hooked around his arm. "LIAM, KAITLYN CAN YOU PLEASE POSE TOGETHER...." Liam pulled me closer to him and kept his hand on my waist while we smiled for some pictures together. "You know, you look beautiful..." I blushed and smirks up at him as he steered into my eyes. The flashing lights brought us out of our moment and we continued to walk the carpet together. "KAITLYN IS THIS THE NEW BOYFRIEND?" "LIAM YOU'VE MOVED ON FROM SOPHIA TO KAITLYN QUITE QUICK...." Liam tensed and I grabbed his hand, "ignore them..." I whispered in his ear as we walked into the event. I released my hand from his, but his was still intwined so he reluctantly let go. I smiled as I was approached by many people congratulating me on walking with Victoria's Secret. "Can you excuse us for a sec..." Liam interrupted and wrapped his arm around my waist leading me away. "Liam what are you doing? I was talk-" he cut me off, "you were bored! I could tell that you were bored out of your mind...." I laughed and he grabbed my hand again. "Come on, let's sneak away, just for a bit..." He grabbed 2 glasses a bottle of champagne and pulled me behind the curtains to the back of the building. We walked a bit and then reached a patio. I sat down on the steps and he sat beside me and poured two glasses. "Here's to you, finally walking the VS runway..." We banged out glasses and took a sip. "Oh Kaitlyn, might I say you walked absolutely superbly tonight...." Liam said mocking the man I was talking to before. "Superbly, no no, phenomenally, the best you have ever!" I mocked his wife and we both burst into a fit of laughter. This went on for about 20 minutes and we just kept laughing and laughing. "Oh I missed this.." Once I had realized k blushed and looked down, "Fuck did I just say that out loud!" Liam laughed and placed his finger under my chin and brought my face up to look at him, "yes you did....but I'll say this out loud .... I missed this too!" We both smiled and he began to lean forward. I felt the butterflies in my stomach erupt and I let myself lean forward too. Our noses just brushed and our lips to about to touch when I got a phone call from my manager. "I-I have to get this..." I grabbed my phone and turned my face. "Where are you? Justin is waiting for you at the building and he says he can't find you anywhere! Get to him now or
I swear..." I hung up and let out a breathe. "I have to go find my date..." He looked crushed when I said that and I chimed in, "it's not a real date, it's just, it's set up by my management..." He nodded, "oh," awkward silence fell upon us, it was even worse because me and Liam had never been like this and it felt weird. "Well then we better get you back," he wrapped his arm around my waist and led me back. When we re-entered I saw Justin waiting there looking around. "I am so sorry, I was just-" he cut me off. "No need to worry doll, come, let's dance." I looked at Liam and reluctantly took Justin's hand. This is business, I have to...especially considering he's my 'boyfriend' now. We went and began to slow dance as some of the other models and their boyfriends joined them. "I shouldn't have kept you waiting like that," he shook his head, "really it's fine. I-I saw Selena here..." Just before he could even complete his sentence the paparazzi were taking pictures. "Justin are you officially off of Selena and onto Kaitlyn?" "Kaitlyn you were with Liam before and now Justin, care to explain?" I looked over and saw Liam steering at me sadly. "Actually , I just stepped in for a second while Selena was finishing a chat," I pulled Selena in and spun out of Justin's arms. "I'm going to dance with him," I put my hand out and Liam took it smiling widely at me. "What about business?" I shook my head, "I want my best friend back!! Our friendship is more important to me then anything business related." He laughed and we began to dance.
By the end of the night and for the first time in a while I had gone home with a smile on my face...which was soon gone. "HOW DARE YOU!!" I looked at my aunt confused, "what are you talking about?" She came forward and pushed me down onto the couch-immediately I felt my head spin. "You fucking fat piece of shit! You ate to much today..." I shook my head, "n-" she slapped me, "don't you dare deny it because I have people who watch you and update me....you fucking ate!" She paced back and forth and I could see her getting angrier and angrier. "You're nothing but a worthless piece of shit! Get out of my face I can already see the fat coming in!" I ran away from her and into my room. I locked the door behind me and proceeded to the bathroom. I looked at myself in the mirror and felt myself grow sicker. I was so fat. She was right. I leaned over the toilet and stuck my fingers down my throat until I began to vomit. My eyes watered as I continued to throw up and the taste of it coming back up is just as bad as it is going down. I bawled my eyes out as I forced every piece of food and ever liquid I drank tonight out of my system. I felt completely empty so I got up, washed my face and looked in the mirror again You're worthless. Ugly. FAT. Obese. Imperfect. Annoying. NEED TO BE THIN. Go force yourself to throw up more. You'll never be as thin as everyone else. FAT. All these thoughts ran through my head as I bent over again and forced myself to throw up more. Even though nothing was coming out I continued to force myself to throw up. "Get the fuck to bed Kaitlyn you need sleep otherwise you'll be even uglier." I continued to cry as I lay in bed shaking. I cried myself to sleep but the tears stop as soon as I thought about Liam....