Biadore

chapter one

Adore/dannys pov

Its 4 am. I feel so alone. I see all my friends dating or even jut having casual hookups. Its been 3 years since ive even held anothers hand. I feel like somethigs wrong eith me. Is it that im ugly? Maybe im annoying? I just dont know.

I get up hoping heading going outside for a smoke will help clear my mind. I step out side onto my patio and pull out a marlboro cigarette and hold it to my lips as i retrive my lighter. I run my tumb across the striker wheel and a spark lights up the darkness. I light up my cigarette and inhale deeply. Immediately the nicotine rushes to my head. I feel light headed but distracted. I turn my attention from my lonely, pathetic life to the stars and sounds of the night.

Cars pass by and dogs howl. I spend 10 minutes caught up in nature before I realize my cigarette met the filter. I throw the but into a puddle and head back inside.

I plunge into my bed and sigh as the nicotine wares off. My phone buzzes and I search through the covers till I see a bright screen.

It's a text from court; "hey bitch, sorry it's late I hope I didn't wake you. Anyways tomorrow all the season 6 Queens are going out for lunch. Are you in?"

"Yeah I'm in. Just text me when you head out."

I am slightly worried about seeing Bianca again. I haven't seen her since the crowning. Ever since the one fan question in front of all those people asking if I had a crush on Bianca. I didn't know what to say. I didn't want to tell everyone including Bianca that I had a huge crush on her since I saw her during drag race.

I don't even know how to describe Bianca. I loved her but it was almost like she looked through me and spoke inderectly. But when I looked at her my world slowed. Like in one Of those cheesy romance movies.

I just wish Bianca liked me back. All I want is to wake up next to her and hold her hand and kiss her neck.

I pull myself out of my thoughts long enough to doze off into a deep slumber.

--next morning--

"Hey adore. Are you feeling okay?" Court asked me. I always loved having court as a friend. She's so sweet and caring.

"Yeah. Just a bit of a rough night." I say quietly. She nods and We walk up to a small cafe where most of the other girls were.

"Bianca, Dela, and Joslyn are going to be a few minutes late. But they told us not to wait." Trinity says letting us know where they are.

We all order and finally the rest of the girls show up. Bianca looked stunning. I loved how she looked as a boy. Her dimples made me smile everytime.

I notice an extra party to our group. It's someone I've never seen. His hair is short and messy. He has tattered ripped jeans on with a dark grey t shirt on.

I look at court confused and she returns the look. Bianca introduces the man.

"Hey sorry guys. Is it okay if my boyfriend joins us?" She says. My heart fell. I felt like when your name is announced for winning a contest. But in a bad way. I weaken and my smile fades.

Everyone nods in approval and start into ducking themselves. Apperently his name is Drake. I don't even know how long they've been together. She never talks about anyone so I've been under through he impression Bianca was single.

Court and Dela notice my voice and smile disappear and I sit motionless with no sign of emotion on my face.

They don't say anything but take me to the bathroom to figure out why I had gone silent. The moment the door shuts I burst into tears.

The girls hug me and comfort me. "What's wrong babe?" Court asks. I just mumble a mess of words muffled by my sobs.

"Is it Drake?" Dela asks with a small voice trying not to upset me. My sobs fade and the girls know what's up.

"You'll find someone. Trust me. They may not be Bianca but they may be better." Dela tells me.

"No I won't. I've gotten those same words for 3 years and I'm single lonely and pathetic. I don't want anyone else. I want Bianca. I need Bianca."

"Well than why don't you wait it out. Wait till Drake and her break up and then you can try to be with bianca." Dela suggests. I wipe my tears and look up at the roof.

"I can't wait. What if they get married. Ugh I do this all the time. I love someone I can't have. Maybe I just don't deserve love."

"No darling. Life is just making sure you wait for the right one." Court says pulling me into a hug. The door swings open and bianca walks in. Everyone goes silent.

"Adore what happened? What's wrong?" Bianca asks wiping tears off my face. The girls nod sending me a silent message and exit.

I lower my head so Bianca can't see my face. "Adore. You know you can tell me anything. I'm here for you. I care about you." I decide to fuck all the Bullshit and come clean. Adrenaline rushes over me causing me to speak without choice.

"I love you.."