Towards Dawn #Wattys2016

7.17. Hum Kahan Chal Diye

"Living in this world isn't the problem Mom! loving this world is" he further added. "or mein ne sari umer bus duniya se muhabbat ki hea, cheezon k peechey dorta raha, insaan se muhabbat bhi duniya k liye he ki mein ne" he shook his head a little as he carried on. Mom looked at me, I gave her a dekha? Mein ne kaha tha na, apka beta khisak gaya hea wali look.

"to kia duniya chor do ge? Allah ne ye kaha hea k duniya chor charr jungle mein nikal jao?" Mom's temperament was shooting and it was a bad omen.

"Sain bhai! I will go with you, we will do camping and lit fire and we will fish too. It will be fun" Maha chimed excitedly and Hussain pressed a smile.

"han han or jab aaye ga na jungle reech to khilana usey wo machliyan or sulana usey camp mein apni goad mein" I retorted, Maha made a face sticking her tongue out at me while Hussain kept quiet.

"What do you want Hussain? why do you want to leave now? Kahan jao ge beta?" Mom asked, holding his hand and he clearly seemed frustrated.

"Mom! you stop worrying okay. Am fine, I just... "he stopped as if finding right words. "Am just finding myself, I want to know who I am, what am for... khud ko dhoondna chahta hoon Mom! khud se milna chahta hoon. Jis din talaash mukamal ho gai sukoon bhi aa jaye ga"

"yahan reh ker nai dhooond sakta tu? Hum ne almari mein band ker k rakha hua hea tujhey Saley! Bus ye keh k hum sab burey lagne lage hen tujhey, door jana chahta hea tu hum se" I jerked my head, looking away as he shook his head defensively.

"Mom! shadi karaen ap Shehry ki, damagh kharab ho gaya hea is ka" Hussain tried to change the topic.

"Salma bhabi se bat hui thi us din, pooch rahi theen buhat tumhara. Asif keh rahe hen k shadi ki date decide ker leni chaiye ub" Mom told us.

"I won't marry, not any time soon Mom!" I announced and she frowned.

"Ub tumhen kia hua?"

"Is ko bol den k jab ye bandey da putter nai banta mein shadi nai karoon ga"

"yar ajeeb bat ker raha hea tu. mujh se teri shadi ka kia taluq? Mein dulhan nai hoon teri" Hussain countered and Maha chuckled.

"Get a dulhan for yourself and I will get married the next day" I claimed all firmly and he got up from the couch, anger suddenly spread across his face.

"agar ye shert hea teri to kawara phir sari umer" he snapped before leaving the lounge.

"Ya Allah! Mein kia karoon is lerkey ka" Mom literally grabbed her head in her hands. Heaving up a sigh I moved forward and knelt down in front of her holding her hands I pulled them down. She looked up at me.

"He will be okay Mom! he has been through a lot we all know this, maybe he needs a little more time in getting normal" I stated, she seemed uncertain.

"per jis rastey per wo chal para hea, whan se wapsi mumkin nai Shehry! kaheen wo koi intihaai qadam na utha bethey... kaheen

"Mom!" I rubbed her cold hands trying to calm her down. "wo rasta Allah ka rasta hea. Hussain kuch ghalat nai karey ga. Trust me" I looked into her eyes, she looked worried, tired.

Hussain's POV

"tu Raheem hea per tu Kahar bhi hea. Tu Rehman hea Ghafoor hea mager tu Jabbar bhi hea. Nauman bhai kehtey hen k tu samander k pani jitney gunah bhi maf ker deta hea, phir mera gunah kia itna bara tha k mujhy mafi nai mil sakti?"

"or agar tu ne maaf ker diya hea to sakoon kun nai merey dil ko? Kun becheni hea her waqt, mayoosi hea...."

My head hung low, my gaze blur fixed down at my palms raised up to my face.