Guilt and Pain Part 40

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Daniel POV...

Feeling as if a bucket of ice water had been thrown over me woke me up from whatever it was that knocked me out. Only to find out it was just a cup of water with ice in it instead. A large plastic cup.

Groaning loudly, I rolled over onto my side and used my arm to lift me up off the floor until I was leaning on my elbow. Using my other hand, I lifted it to grab my jaw feeling as if a truck had hit me. Pushing myself further until I was sitting up on the floor, I sat there shaking my head against the throbbing pain that radiated through out my head at that moment.

I could barely hear all the other voices in the room all talking at the same time. But mostly, all I could hear were whimperings. One's that were coming from Jenny who was now awake and crying softly in her mothers arms. Albeit carefully, but in her mothers arms none the less.

I was still sitting there on the floor not too sure about what to do. But a moment later, I felt two sets of arms grab me under my arms and lift me up off the floor causing my head to feel more throbbing than before causing me to groan aloud again as I was plonked into an arm chair not to far from where I had been sitting, or laying, on the floor.

Then a hand appeared in front of me that was holding a cup filled with water.

"Take these. They're pain killers for that throbbing headache you have." A gruff voice spoke down to me from above.

"Thank you." I said quietly as I slowly reached out and took both the water and the pills that were in the other hand and after throwing the pills into my mouth, I lifted the cup of water to my mouth and threw the water in after the pills.

Then I just sat there not looking up or looking at anything actually. I just kept staring at the floor and pretended that I wasn't even in the room when what I really wanted to do was get up and go over and hold my wife in my arms. Not see her in anyone else's.

All I could hear now was the quiet voice of Jenny's mum on the other side of the room talking to her with my mum standing close by the bed adding a few words  into the conversation. I tried to look up and see what was happening but my shame wouldn't allow me.

I felt like I was going to throw up. In fact, I think I was which caused me to startle everyone as I jumped to my feet and flew over to the door wrenching it open and flying down the hall way heading for the men's room. Seeing a disabled one in front of me, I pushed the door open and hoping no one was in there, rushed over to the toilet where I vomited anything I have eaten in the last few hours, including those painkillers I just had.

Not that it was much. Mostly I was dry heaving. I was that weak, I fell to my knees before the ceramic basin and just hugged it as I continued to heave.

Feeling a wet face washer being wiped over my face and the back of my neck, I turned to thank my mother only to find that it was Jenny's dad who was there with my father standing behind him.

Not knowing what to do or say, I just lowered my head to the basin and started sobbing again, not the dainty sobs you see some women cry but the gut wrenching kind that shows how devastated you are over something monumental that has happened and you don't know what to do or what to say.

I just fell then to the floor and with an arm on one knee that was drawn up, I placed my head in my hand and continued to sob not caring that there were two men standing there in front of me. A moment later, I felt someone groan as they made themselves comfortable on the floor beside me.

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