Looking in the mirror

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Sam and the boys left after our eventful game of truth or dare and watching zombieland. I walked up stairs and changed in to my pjs and took my make up off. I took off the makeup off my arms. I studied my cuts. I moved my shorts up to see my scars on my legs. Barley noticeable if you didn't know they were there. I lifted my shirt up to see my stomach. Scars, again slowly fading away. I sighed. I guess In a way I didn't want them to fade away completely. Although I don't know why. I looked in the mirror looking at my face. Pointing out every flaw.

'so ugly'

'Worthless'

'Trash'

'Slut'

'Whore'

No one loves you'

'Go die'

Those words echoed through my mind. Over and over. I placed my hands over my sink leaning closer to the mirror.

I wanted to scream. I wanted to cry. I wanted to escape.

I walked over to my rug in front of my shower. I now I hid my razors there so they weren't so easy to findI pulled out the small one I had. I just wanted the words to stop. The pain to go away. I got up and walked to the floor in front of my bed.I held the cold blade against my skin, it felt like ice. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I applied pressure and swiftly moved the blade against my skin. I could feel the tears building. I opened my eyes to see blood all over my arm. I guess I cut a bit deeper then I thought. I felt free from the words. Yet still not satisfied. I took the blade in my other hand and repeated what I recently done. I tilted my head back sighing and taking a deep breath. I let the tears fall. I looked up to my ceiling. I started to see black spots. I was barley able to lift my head to look at my arms. Blood took over my arms. Blood on the carpet. I sighed and laied my head back again. I put my hands in my lap playing with my thumbs. There were only a few people on my mind. Aunt sally, Sam, mikey, cal, ashton, and luke. What would they think if they found me laying dead in my room.

'Good'

'Finally'

I shook my head. I once again felt like screaming. I cried even harder. I started to see black spots again. I could feel a cold shiver down my spine. I couldn't breath, I was gasping for air.

I heard a ringing.

Then every thing went black.

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