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I was completely heartbroken. I didn’t get this feeling in my chest, it hurt. I never hurt like this before; this was completely new to me.

I was lying in my bed, crying. I was just crying into one of his shirts, so completely and totally devastated.  We were over. Harry Styles, my first kiss, time, date, hand hold, boyfriend, best friend, was gone, and out of my life. He didn’t want me anymore. He dumped me.

“Finny,” my mom came in, setting her hand on my leg. “What is going on?”

“Harry broke up with me.” I hiccupped.

“Oh no, sweetheart,”

“I don’t understand, I don’t get this pain in my chest.”

“That’s your heart being broken,” she rubbed my face gently. “Did he say why?”

“It’s hard to explain, I don’t get how he could do this. We’ve been through everything. He let me into his life, and he shared everything with me. I’m the only one how knows him, who really knows him. I… mom,” I got up and cried into her chest. “I miss him already. He was my best friend, my only friend.”

“I’m sorry Finley,” she rubbed my back.

“I don’t know what to do with myself.” I choked. “I’ve never been through this before. How do you handle this? What do I do?”

“You just…” she thought. “You take a deep breath, cry it out while your mom goes to the store.” She kissed my head and left.

I rolled back into my pillows and cried. I felt stupid crying, but I didn’t what else to do. I never felt pain like this before. I just wanted to call him, or see him, kiss him, anything. I knew I had to tell him the truth; it wasn’t my secret to keep.

My mom came back, and crawled into bed with me. “Eat,” she had a tub of ice cream and a spoon, it was chocolate fudge. She set a box of tissues beside me.

“How will this solve anything?”

“Trust me,”

I sat up and did as she said. “I really didn’t think he’d dump me.” I shook my head. “He was my first boyfriend mom, my first kiss, first guy to make me smile so much, hug me…”

“Honey,” she said quietly. “Did it get farther than all that?” I looked at her, tears falling down my face. “Oh Fin,” she hugged me tightly.

“I really thought he cared about me. I swear, mom, don’t be mad-”

“I’m not mad. You’re hurt; I’m not going to kick you while you’re down. We’ve all been there,” I laid my head on her chest after I set the ice cream on the floor. She held me, running her hands up and down my arms.

“You’ve been there?”

“Oh yes, I was a geek in high school. Before I met your dad I met a boy named Sam. He was much cooler than me and I really thought he liked me. So, I was stupid enough to give him my first time. It was just terrible. I felt awful, he never wanted to see me again after.”

“Mine wasn’t like that, that’s what makes it hurt more. It was safe, and happy and perfect, it makes it kill me.”

“Find comfort in that, find comfort in the moment and the times you had.”

“Ugh,” I groaned.

I didn’t know what he was doing. I didn’t know how he was handling anything, or if he was just shutting everything out. I couldn’t focus on him anymore; I had to focus on my heartbreak.

I was such a wreck seeing his stuff all over my room, it made my heart hurt even more. After my mom left to get dinner going I started grabbing all of his clothes, shoving them in the back of my closet. I took down one of the drawings he did, setting it in my desk, then another one he did of us. I took down a painting he did from my wall, putting it in the back of my closet too. Finally I took down the silly photo of us together, I felt like I was falling apart. I hadn’t ever known this feeling before. I had no idea if I’d ever recover from it.

A/N: There is one. More. Update. Then you all will get to see what really goes down and the ending, I can’t wait for you to see the ending. So check back in a few days, I have to put the final touches on it.

I want you all to give me your thoughts, if you don’t mind. I have a story ready to go after this one is completed. It’s called Gang Member, and it’s with Liam Payne. I got a lot of requests to make it more… provocative? I wanted to know how you would feel if this story did contain more adult content, like the other stories where the guys are portrayed as bad guys, they usually are… better with women? So I wanted to get your thoughts. I can edit it really fast and make it clean or I can keep it as is and let it contain mature content. Your choice! Let me know what you think.

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