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               [Jesse's Point Of View...]

               He said yes, I couldn't believe my ears. I felt like throwing up - not because it was disgusting but because I'm nervous as hell. This is something new to be, yet I'm not afraid. A couple of weeks ago I'd be completely repulsed by the idea of dating a guy, but then I met Rayne.

               He seemed to have unlocked something inside of me, something new and powerful. Something I'm afraid of...but I'm taking my chances. Because I've never felt this way about a person. I've liked many, many, many girls in my life but never once did I fall in love.

               Now all I have to do is just look at Rayne and my heart melts into a puddle of confusion. Am I really gay? Well bi, since I am attracted to girls. Or am I straight, but Rayne is an exception? Because that's how I feel right now. I don't like guys, it's simple as that.

               But when I look at Rayne, I don't see the revolting things I usually see when I look at a guy in that way. Why is he so different to me? Is it his looks? Is it because he looks like a fucking angel? Maybe ... but all I knew was that I was irrevocably attracted to him.

               And now I will know for sure, as he accepted my date. I'm not going to blow this like the many times I made my date run off on me because I was too weird. At least they didn't care about my looks and they actually wanted to date me. Cause I know some people that would date other creepy people just because they're good looking. That's just messed up.

               I wonder what my mom would think. I mean, I don't think she'll get pissed about it. But I don't want her thinking I'm going gay because Rayne is the only guy I'd ever date. Ever. Period.

               If it doesn't work out between us then my confusion will be over because I'm not going to look for guys. I'll just go back to girls, and that isn't a problem for me.

               I wonder what Phil and Priscella would think...I know Priscella would go crazy and make us marry or something stupid like that. Phil, he'd be supportive of it but then he'd be confused just like I was. 

               I guess I'll know for sure when the real feelings start to pour in. I'll know in my heart if it's what I want. I hope it's what I want. Because the way I feel around Rayne is something special and I don't want to let go of it. I don't want to let go of him. 

               We just arrived at our dorm building, we didn't speak at all on the way here, I guess we were both into deep thoughts. Like what will happen between us?

               "Rayne! Baby! My white boy! Come here!" Some girl that I didn't know ran up to him as we entered the building, she took him by the hand and pulled him away from me - must be a friend of his. He looked back at me and gave me a sorry look.

               "Have fun," I mouthed at him.

               I watched them both run down the halls and disappear around the corner. At least now I don't have to be awkward cause we both don't know what to do. Sending him to his room would be the wrong decision since it looks depressing in my head. It's Thursday, we have no classes till Monday so staying in our rooms would be completely useless.

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