"What happened?" Kita whispered.

"I found the drug that first night when I wondered into a Kremlin city on the border. I tried to disguise myself and hit a dive bar. I got several drinks when I went to leave I realized I didn't have my belt. This guy bought me a couple of drinks and picked up mine. At some point he slipped me the drug and the rest is history as they say." Sarin hung her head unhappy with herself.

"And then you just stumbled from there to the Ruby City?" Kita asked quietly.

Sarin nostrils flared. "What do you want to hear? Every gritty detail I remember? That I whored myself for the drug and woke up to men I'd never touch otherwise? That I cheated on you for it? That I hate myself and every morning I wished I'd died? That I'm ashamed of myself? I'm sorry ok? I know I'll never be able to say it enough."

"I'm sorry. I just thought if you shared I could help." Kita replied softly. "I don't care about what you did; you didn't have much of a choice. I just want to help, like you do for me. I..."

A knock caused the two angels to look at the door.

"Momma Kita? Are you ok? We're heard you yelling in our room." Quill's voice came through the door.

"Crap." Kita swore. She forgot she'd turned down the sound dampening so she could keep an ear on them. It didn't occur to her it would go both ways. "Go get some clothes on." Kits hissed at Sarin. Grabbing her towel Kita wrapped it around herself. Checking to make sure Sarin was gone, she put a smile on her face and opened the door.

"Hello girls. Is everything alright?" Kita asked.

"We were going to ask you that," Spike accused in a very adult voice.

"We're fine, girls. Sarin and I were just talking."

"Crying and yelling is more like it." Quill pointed out.

"Yes, we were doing that to." Sarin answered coming out from the bathroom sealing up a bodysuit.

"Why?" Spike asked.

"Because Kita and I care a lot about each other and sometimes when we worry about each other we can get emotional." She watched looks of concern cross the two angels faces. "Don't worry, it's a good thing. It means we care about each other."

"Why are you getting emotional?" Quill incurred curiously.

"That's between Kita and I." Sarin replied with a smile.

"You're not mad that she adopted us while you were gone, are you?" Spike asked with a sudden worried look.

Sarin looked appalled, "Of course not! You're both adorable. I can't wait until I can get a change to know you better."

Kita knelt down between them. "Girls, Sarin and I are just unhappy with ourselves over how we handled things between us. We were just having trouble communicating with each other. It's nothing to get concerned over, it happens."

"But why?" Quill persisted.

"Why?" Kita echoed for a moment, "Because I'm being selfish and not thinking about Jane's feelings, only mine."

"That's not very nice. You shouldn't be selfish." Spike scolded.

"I know. Sometimes people just forget, but the sooner you recognize it and make amends the better."

"Are you two going to make amends now?" Quill asked with a smile.

Kita looked over her shoulder at Sarin, who smiled pleasantly. "I think so."

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