"Lex, are you going to drive or do you want me to?" Jaime asked.

i hadn't even noticed we were in front of Kellin's house.

"can you?"

"yep." Jaime got out of the back seat and climbed in the drivers seat

This was not going to be easy.

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we'd been sitting in my mom's hospital room and Kellin and Jaime had broken a little toy from the gift shop that someone had gotten her.

i picked it up and looked at it after slapping them in the back of the head. it was just sone cheesey little sunflower that moved back and forth in a little plastic garden. i fixed the spring and set it down as Jaime and Kellin argued about who's fault it was.

"So who got that for you?"

"Jessica. from work." she said smiling at me.

"That was nice of- would you two stop arguing."

"this is a very intense conversation not an argument. boy stuff. you wouldn't understand." Jaime said quickly before going back to his argument with Kellin.

"Are you sure he's your boyfriend and not your son?" my mom said with a light laugh

"pretty sure." i said with a worried expression.

"You're such a child!" Kellin said ignoring Jaime's statement

"Hey, you're never to young to not grow up!" Jaime said confidently.

I rolled my eyes and a nurse came in and said,

"I'm so sorry, visiting hours are almost over. You have 15 minutes!"

Kellin responded to the nurse adn i gave my mom a big hug and told her i loved her.

It was really hard to leave because they really had no idea what was wrong with her or how long she had.

she told me she loved me and that i was beautiful and i told her the same.

I really hoped she wasn't leaving us anytime soon but i knew we wouldn't be that lucky.

I left the room as Kellin spoke with my mom because it was really hard for me to keep it together. I was so scared for her but i wanted to be strong for her and i didn't want her to worry about me.

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When we arrived home i cracked. WE stepped through the door and Kellin asked if i was okay. I nodded my head and faked a smile. I know he knew i was faking it but he didn't say anything. He just went into the kitchen and i heard him start toboil some water. Probably to make himself some tea.

I turned to Jaime and bursted into tears. He wrapped his arms around me and held me as i cried.

I heard Kellin come in and didn't even try to compose myself. It was no use. I felt him wrap his arms around both me and Jaime and i just cried.

I was doign the same thing I'd done when Kale passed away. Except my mom was still alive.

"let's get you upstairs." Jaime wishpered in my ear.

I felt Kellin pull away from our little group hug and heard him go back into the kitchen.

Jaime pulled me upstairs and found my room. we sat down on my bed as i continued to cry. about half an hour later and my sobs had died down and i was only sniffling now. i pulled away from Jaime but still leaned against him.

"You okay?" He asked.

i looked at him, laughed a little bit and said,

"You're kidding, right?"

he shook his head and laughed lightly then said,

"stupid question. sorry."

"No it's fine. Where's Ke-" i stopped mid sentence when Kellin came into the room with a mug containing a steamy substance.

"made your favorite," he said handing me the plain black mug with a bright yellow smiley face on it.

i smelled the tea and said,

"Strawberry."

"like i said, your favorite." 

"Thank you Kellin. I love you." 

"I love you too, Le-" 

Kellin was cut off by his phone ringing. It wasn't Sophie because if it was it would be playing James Dean and Audrey Hepburn but instead it was playing Have Faith In Me. It was an unknown number. 

"HEllo? ... You're kidding me?" 

There was a long pause and Kellin's voice cracked as he said, "Thank you for calling me to let me know. I'll tell my sister." right after he sadi sister he hung up and fell onto my bed and started crying.  

Kellin?" I said my voice shaking. 

"She's gone." he said quietly, barely. 

We spent the rest of that night crying and honestly i felt bad for Jaime. He hadn't known her like Kellin and i had. He couldn't really mourn with us. 

At about 3 in the morning Jaime got up to go to the bathroom. i looked at Kellin and said, 

"Dude, you've got to promise me something." 

"What?" 

"Promise me you won't shut down again. I can't handle that. " 

"I promise. But that means you can't shut down either." 

"I promise. But i think i'm all cried out for tonight.. Or today.. or whatever. I'm all cried out, so i think i'm going to try and get some sleep." 

He nodded his head adn dragged his feet over to my door. When he got there he turned adn said, 

"I love you so much, Lexi. Remember that." 

I forced a smile and said, 

"I love you too." 

as i changed into a pair of sweatpants adn i tank top i heard Kellin say to Jaime, 

"She's going to bed. You can take my room, I'll sleep on the couch." 

I put on some soft music adn fell asleep quite quickly. 

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AN: I AM SO FREAKING SORRY! IF YOU'RE CRYING (you're probably not) I AM SO SORRY! also it's really short but here!

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