Chapter 1: Bad News

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            I was in my dorm, packing for the ski trip as I danced and sang to Avril Lavigne's song, Hot. I turned my music up and used my brush as a microphone until my iPod was shut off. Thinking it had died, I turned around and nearly had a heart attack when I saw Dimitri standing next to my speaker.

"What are you doing in here and how much did you see?"

"I saw enough to know you can find a way to dance to anything and I have to tell you something." His voice a nervous edge and suddenly, I was aware that I only wore a bra, tank top, and very short sleeping shorts that barely covered my a$$ and I was pretty sure he noticed.

"What is it?"

"Tasha made me an offer to become her guardian...and...to...um...start a family with her." I froze. It took me a minute to force the anger and sorrow building in me down. I put on a fake smile and nodded.

"Congrats, I'm so ha-" I tried before adding, "I can't lie to you. I want to be happy for you but I can't; I want you to have everything that you deserve: A wife, kids...but I love you and you are mine." Before he could say anything, I was able to use the move he'd used so many times on me to pin him. I knew that he could've gotten me off of him but he didn't. I kissed him, crashing my mouth on his.

"You're mine." I growled in his ear and pushed off of him. I really thought he'd say something about moral and right and wrong. Blah, blah, blah. So you can imagine my surprise when he grabbed me by my waist and kissed me. I kissed him back and felt us falling onto my bed. I knotted my hands in his hair as I straddled him.

"Roza..." He moaned my Russian name which he had barely called me since the lust charm. And if I thought the charm was great, this was so much better.

"Yeah?"

"I love you. I love you but this is so wrong. We cant."

"Can you give up the right and wrong sh*t for tonight? I love you and I want you. I need you." He smiled and kissed me again before I unbuttoned his shirt, our bodies rubbing together as we kissed. (A/N of you want the details, comment below or personally message me of you want.)This was insane but I guess my message got across...He was MINE.

Dimitri's POV

                I woke up but I wasn't in my bed. After a minute, I remembered I was in hers. I wished I could stay with her. I knew that's what last night was about. I was hers and she was mine but it's wrong. Screw right and wrong. I loved her. I draped an arm over her and felt her nestle into my arms. Just for tonight. Well, what was left of it since the sun would probably set in a few hours. I kissed her cheek and slipped out of bed before getting dressed and leaving. She'd be pissed, probably, but I needed to think. I spent the night with her and I know how much that had meant to her. Especially from all the times I told her that I loved her. I wasn't lying either. I do love her but there was no way that we could be together. I walked to my dorm and groaned as I fell on the bed.

             When my alarm clock went off, indicating that I had to get to practice with Rose, I sat up. I didn't want to face her; There were too many complications. I walked to the gym after getting coffee and relieved to know that Rose would probably be late. When she made it in, I noticed a hickey on her neck and chuckled, knowing I put it there. She didn't seem happy but didn't talk. She finished her donut and walked into the storage room and grabbed a sweatshirt I guessed she kept in there.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"What's not?" She shot a glare full of knives at me.

"Rose...."

"I don't expect anything more. I'm a student, blah blah blah, right and wrong, blah blah blah, last night didn't mean anything, blah blah blah. I figured it out when you left." I winced. Every word she flung at me proved how much I was hurting her.

"It meant something." I said as we walked to the track.

"Apparently not. I'm seventeen, not a moron. I want you to be happy and have kids and a wife so take her offer. I'll understand." She said before muttering, "You're not the first guy to try to sleep with me but you are the only one who succeeded." I don't think she meant for me to hear. Rose had been a virgin? Now I felt like an a$$. I had taken her virginity but left before she woke and then she was willing to tell me to do what makes me happy.

"I'm not taking her offer." I said quietly. Rose froze while stretching.

"I can't give you anything you want. Or deserve. Can you just say yes and leave? I've already spent enough time thinking and hurting over you and I'm tired of it. I can't stay around you when you don't love me like I love you. And last night and this morning really cleared things up. I'm fine with it." She was lying through her perfect teeth. She wasn't fine with it and she would never be. I grabbed her wrist and pulled her to the gym, out of view from anyone else since there were no windows.

"Never think I don't love you." I growled and pinned her against the wall before kissing her. She hesitated in shock before kissing me back.

"Then why'd you leave? Was it not good or something?" She said mischievously.

"Last night was amazing. Were you serious that you were a virgin?" I was honestly curious.

"Yes." She said, embarrassed.

"I left because I needed to think. I'm sorry." Our foreheads pressed together before She grinned.

"There's ways to make it up to me." I smiled and kissed her again while lifting her up.

"Did you mean it? Do You love me?" Her Brown eyes stared into mine.

"Yes, I did. I love you, Roza. More than you'll ever know....But we can't sleep together again. Unless we are off campus." I added when her face tell into an adorable pout.

"What counts as off campus?" A sly smile played on her soft lips.

"The cabins. The lodge. Missoula."

"Missoula?" ( timeline is a bit scrambled)

"I told Tasha I'd drive her to Missoula and you need a day off." Her smile turned into a thousand watt grin. I smiled back and pressed our lips together. When we pulled away, she smiled.

"I love you." I whispered.

"I love you too." She sighed.

"And I'm sorry for sneaking out. Next time, I'd like to wake up with you in my arms."

"Next time?" She tried to arch one eyebrow but failed.

"Only of you want." I assured before She pulled me down to kiss her.

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