Regretful!Enderlox x Cutting!Suicidal!Reader

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Y/n pov

I sat in the corner, holding a small knife in my hands. Blood dripped to the ground. Large, deep cuts covered my arms and legs. I looked at the blood soaked knife, then, with a small smile, I dug half of it into my arm, ripping it downwards. That did it. What seemed like gallons of blood flowed out. The world started to turn dizzy, darkening, and suddenly, I collapsed to the ground. Thoughts swirled in my mind. Thoughts on what happened just before I did this swirled in. The things he said. The things he did. 
You're useless!
Can't do anything right!
I don't know why I even love you.
The door suddenly slammed open, none other than the heart breaker himself stood there. With his wings, tail, everything.His purple eyes were filled with worry, replaced with horror when he seen me. Instantly, he ran to me, collapsing to his knees beside me. "I-I thou-thought you d-didn't care.."  I whispered as he picked me up. "Shut up!" He snapped, spinning around and running out of the room. I blacked out after that, vaguely hearing him yell my name.
I woke up in a purple and black bed. Immediately, I knew where I was. Enderlox was on his knees beside the bed, his arms crossed on front of him, his head resting on them. I would have thought he was asleep, if not for the soft crying that could be heard. I sat up slowly, he instantly shot up at the movement. His eyes were red and puffy from crying, tears still falling. His shirt was slightly jerked to the left, and his hair wasn't brushed -At times he seemed to care about his hair more then anything-. I've never seen him like this. He looked awful. "Wh-what?" I whispered, confused. He starred at me fir a few seconds, before he lurched forward, wrapping his arm sightly around me. "Don't you EVER do that again!" He snarled. I flinched, looking away. He sat down beside me, pulling me onto his lap  afterwards, holding me closer. He was surprisingly gentle. I looked back at him, completely confused, "Wh-what?" "Stop saying that!" I flinched again, tearing up. I didn't like being yelled at, I never did. His cold eyes softened, and he seemed like he would start crying again. "I'm s-so sorry..." He whispered, "I-I..." He took a deep breath, wrapping his arms around me again, "I never wanted to hurt you. I just....I'm not good with this kind of stuff. I'm so used to just....yelling, attacking, things like that. I' sorry." I laid my head on his chest, listening to his rapid heart beat. "You don't know how much you mean to me. I never show it, but I truly love you....and I know you probably hate me....a-and-" I looked  up at him with a soft smile, "I-I love you too....I don't  h-hate you. All you need is a little work..." I reached up slightly, smoothing out his ruffled hair. He stared at me in slight confusion, and disbelief. "Th-thank you." I murmured, hugging him. "For what?" "For caring enough to come back." He smiled, "I really am sorry. I love you..." "I-I love you too." We spent the rest of the day in each others arms. Whether we were talking quietly, or just enjoying the others company. 

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