Until the end of time

Part 1: Oblivious

"Arrgh!! I miss you, way to much for my heart to handle, I can't be dealing with this, you're all i think about, all i need...All i want, but you're oblivious, of how happy I get when you text me first, how i fall wildly in love with all the littlest things about you, like you're smile, and how adorable it is, and well your personality, you are such a sweet person, well when you want to be, we have more in common than you may think, but every little quirk about you I love, and well hun..That's not going to change, for a long..Long time, I could go on forever but-"

I sigh, deleting it "What am I doing , she won't care, she never did" I mumble under my breath deleting the text and slumping down on my jet black leather computer chair, I'm such a fool, I should never have been so clingy!! ...I let out another dissappointed sigh "Its all my fault" I mumble letting a tear snake its way down my cheeks, which were now seeping with redness

*BZZT*

I flinch and crane myself forward as the dim glow of my phone which quickly fills up the room

It's a text, wait...Ellie?! What does she want??...

"Hey Lucy, you alright??"

A slight smile etches itsself on my face, but why does she care?? I mean, sure its nice, but shouldn't she be talking to her boyfriend or something, I stare blankly at the screen for a short period before gathering myself together.

"Yeah, Just miss someone..."-

I sit there in hesitation my head rambling with thoughts, what if she knows? what if she laughs at me?? I can't go back again, not there...

I sigh shutting my eyes and slowly press down enter, I could already see my world crumbling before me, and it wasn't nice, everything was falling apart and crumbling before me, I rubbed my eyes causing a phosphenes effect, hanging my head down low waiting for the patterns to mellow before opening my eyes and tilting my cranium to look out of the window, I see a twilight infused sky with coldly glittering stars, studded like diamantés across the midnight blue sky, and having the sudden realisation that she doesn't love me, maybe she once did but, that's long gone now, and I guess I'm going to have to live by it

I swing myself out from the desk and stand up all in one motion, I'll have time to think in the morning...

I grab my phone and put it beside me as I slip into my new pyjamas, they're so comfy, the room smells of lush products, i can't fathom why, but whatever's causing this wonderful smell, I hope it stays, It's rather comforting at this time.

Clambering into bed I grab my covers and my phone then slither into the warmth of my covers, I turn my attention to my phone

"Ahh she's seen it." I mumble trying to keep my feelings and thought all in one place, right now they are everywhere, and it gets on my nerves.
My phone buzzes once again, catching my attention
"Cool, I was wondering if you'd like to come to the cinema tomorrow? With me, Andrew, Jodie and perhaps Emily??"
I sat there in utter silence, completely jaw dropped, did she REALLY want me to go?!..
I freaked out for a minute or two before replying "Yes!! I'd love to!!"
"Good, I'll pick you up at 3:30 does that sound good??"
I reply back with no hesitation
"Yeah 💕"
Putting my phone next to me I couldn't wipe the smile off my face, was this actually happening?! Was I really going to the cinema with my crush?!?!
I let off a swoon sigh before my cranium hit my pillow, it was quite a cold night, but my heart was filled with warmth. And it wasn't going away anytime soon.
The next morning I woke up to hear the  morning chorus from outside, the sun blanketed itself onto my face as my eyes felt like they were scrubbed with salt infused barbed wire, it took a while to open them but I got there, I smiled as the bright pastel colours of dawn could be seen from my window, It was such a spectacular view, (so was Ellie's Arse but still 😂) I sat on the edge of my bed and clutched my phone,
"6:34?! That's the earliest I have woken up in the holiday!" I pushed out an aggravated groan but force myself over to the wardrobe where a full rainbow of clothes are, I had a separate wardrobe for just black clothes (bcs emu)
Running my finger over all the clothes and throwing many on the floor, I finally chose the perfect outfit, my black felt hoodie with white wings on the back and ribbons threaded through the hips and arms of the hoodie, a black skull tee, some black leggings and my platform punk shoes, it'd all fit together perfectly especially with eyeliner and mascara