The Widow's Daughter (Avengers)

Chapter 18

Darkness.

You can't live your life without darkness.

It is one of the necessities of life.

If you live without darkness than you must be an angel. Something that doesn't exist. If you live without darkness you must not be living.

When darkness shows in your life then you are sad, depressed, or dying.

For me it is a whole new level.

For me darkness is empty. It is torturous.

Darkness does not just live inside of me. It is me.

In both worlds. In my fake memories and in my real ones, I am the darkness.

Nothing brought me light.

Nothing could.

Not even the love of my family could bring me the light that I have always wanted. I always wanted to see the light but no matter what I do I can't find it.

I have been running my whole life.

Running from the darkness.

Nothing can save me.

I am too far gone.

I was too far gone when I first breathed my first breath of air.

I don't think that anyone can save me.

Some say I have fallen. Others say that I can be saved. Most believe them.

But I can't be saved.

It's impossible.

Except for one person.

He understood me. He knew what I felt. He never saw me as the person who was hidden in the dark. He saw me as the person who can be saved. He saw me as the one person who was right for him.

He loved me and I loved him.

But when I crashed to earth all of those years ago or just last year, he was gone. He disappeared into thin air. When I became an assassin.

He was gone because I had lost my emotions.

That was how I was trained.

I was trained to lose all emotion. Well that's how I took it. I gave up when I was taken from my home.

I don't exactly know how I did it but I crashed on earth.

That was why they took my memories. They didn't want me to do what I was doing. They didn't want a monster on their planet so they took them away. They took everything away.

One year ago

"Delany hurry up!" Loki shouted. "They'll catch you!"

I giggled and picked up the bottom of my dress to run faster.

"I don't understand why I couldn't be on Juoddeik's team." I said when I caught up with Loki. "It would have made the teams a bit more fair."

"Well sorry for not being fast." Loki mumbled.

"I didn't mean it like that." I said.

Loki grabbed my hand and pulled me into the space between the two buildings. We were playing tag teams.

You had teams of even numbers. Many kids were playing but Thor and Juoddeik's team was it. And they always come after us. They always try to get us to be it. And they always catch us. It's because I slow down because I like to see Juoddeik but I always get into trouble because then I get tagged and Loki gets mad.
"I know what you meant. You just want to be with your lover." Loki whispered in my ear and laughed.