I rushed into the hospital with Trey right by my side. I was pulled out of my sleep by my phone in the middle of the night after I got home from Trey and I's outing. It was the hospital calling to tell me that my mom had suddenly taken a turn for the worse. I walked down the hall with tears blocking my vision as I tried to make my way to my mom's room. I just didn't understand how this could happen so suddenly. I had been here for a little over a month and my mom's condition had been fluctuating, but not once did I ever imagine her dying. In the call they told me that she was now on a ventilator and wanted to know if we should honor her order to not be recessitated.
I pushed the door of her room open to see her hooked up to multiple machines with wires running from her body.
"Mom" I said shaking her body a little bit. Her body was so limp and her heart beat was barely there.
"Mom please wake up" I said as tears flowed down my face. I felt Trey come over to me and wrap his arm around me before placing a kiss on my shoulder.
"I'm so sorry Nell" he said shaking his head before the doctor came in.
"Ms. Montgomery?" he said walking closer to where I was standing
"Hi Dr. Parker. Is my mom gonna be okay?" I asked, though I already knew the answer.
"I'm afraid things aren't looking too great. This machine is essentially the only thing keeping her alive. It's really just a matter of time" he said as I shook my head. I couldn't believe what he was saying. My mom was all I had left, and now he was telling me that I only had a few moments left to share with my mother. I couldn't take this.
"Your mom's been sick for a very long time. I've been treating he for a little over two years, but sadly we caught her cancer very late. We've tried to make her condition improve for months, however nothing has seemed to be working. I can honestly say the only thing that's kept her going for this long was her faith. She was a strong woman, but unfortunately, God seems to want one of his children home" he said placing an arm on my shoulder.
"I'll give you guys some time." he said before walking out the room. I hated that there was nothing else he could say, no alternative, no treatment method. I wanted him to tell me good news but unfortunately, I knew there was none. The same thing happened to my grandmother, and it was only a matter of hours or minutes before she took her last breath.
I uncurled myself from Trey's embrace and pulled a chair to my mother's bedside before taking her hand in mine.
"Mom. Please don't go." I stated between tears. "I love you so much, I don't know what I'm gonna do without you mom. I need you. I shouldn't have left you. I should've stayed here with you. Mom I don't want you to leave me." I said intertwining my fingers with hers. I couldn't believe this was happening. How was I supposed to live without my mother and hearing her voice everyday? As I held her hand, her heart beat slowed and I looked up to see her breathing slow before it came to a stop and her heart monitor flat-lined.
"Mom" I called as my eyes widened. Although I expected it, I didn't expect it to happen so soon. I just wanted a few more minutes with her. "Mom wake up!"I yelled shaking her lifeless body
"Mom please" I yelled as tears flowed from my eyes. "Please come back" I grabbed at her body as Trey came and began pulling me back. "Stop! Let me go! Mom!" I yelled as he pulled me away from her body. Dr. Parker came in with a few other nurses. One nurse pulled the cloth over her body before the doctor wrote a few things on her file.
"Please" I said once Trey finally got his arms around me. He kissed my forehead and pulled my head into his chest.
"I'm so sorry" he said sniffling. "I'm so sorry" he said as he cried and I grabbed onto his shirt. I couldn't believe she was gone. I wish I spent more time with her, I wish I heard her voice more and I wish it was me instead of her.