Chasing Jaime. (A Jaime Preciado Story)

I've Got A Hole inside, And It's Ten Miles Wide.

"Tony she doesn't hate me! She wants me to be her son!"

"I told you she would love you Jord. I know how she is."

"Do you know how long it's been since someone called me there son? Or since I could actually call someone mom?" He was tearing up.

"Baby, don't cry." I hate when he's upset.

"She barley knows me and she already loves me, my mother have birth to me and now she hates me..."

"I'm sorry about your mother Jordan, think about it this way, you have a beautiful family with us. And now you have a mother that will love you no matter what."

"I'm glad I found you Tony." He kissed my cheek.

"Not as happy I am that you and I get to spend the rest of our life together." I held his hand. He smiled at out the window.

God I love him. Two days until the rest of our life together. I'm so excited, and so nervous.

-about two hours later-

We are laying in bed. He's asleep in my arms and in over thinking like I usually do. So many questions. What if he decided he doesn't want to marry me while in standing there? What if he just doesn't show up at all? What if we don't work out after we are married? What if we live a happy life as adopt a baby? Isn't that how it's supposed to be? What if our kid grows up and gets picked on for having two dads? Will we lose fans because of me marrying a man? Why am I worried about what other people think? So many questions. I look Over at his sleeping body. He is so cute. He mouth is slightly ope, my little mouth breather. I love him so much. I close my eyes hoping to drift off to sleep.

~Tony's dream~

I'm standing on the cliff were I wedding is taking place, it overlooks the ocean. Its just...So beautiful. Everyone is dressed up. I've got my solid black plugs in, skinny jeans and a suit top. I tried to look good and comfortable at the same time. He looks the same. What else can you expect from a gay wedding?

"You look great Jord." I smiled

"You look great too." He was shaking. "Tony we need to talk."

"About what baby?" I kissed his forehead.

"I can't do this Tony. I can't. I'm not ready. I just can't. I don't feel the same way about this. I thought it would be easier. Tony, I don't think I love you the way I used to. I'm sorry." He kissed me one last time and walked away. I grabbed his arm.

"Jordan, please don't do this. Please don't leave me. I love you." I was practically begging. "Please, don't go."

"I'm sorry Tony." He turned around and walked away.

I fell to the ground. I am bawling. I'm screaming.

"Why?! If there is a god in heaven why the fuck is he doing this to me?!" I screamed at the sky.

I got up still bawling. I walked to the edge of the cliff.

"I can't live without him..." I whispered.

"Tony what are you doing?!" I heard Jaime scream.

I turned just enough for him to see half of my face.

"I can't live without him. He is my soulmate. I can't do it." I took a step closer to the edge.

"Tony stop!" He screamed.

"What else do I have to love for?" Another step.

"Tony. Please" he begged.

I turned around completely so he could see my face.

"I'm sorry." I whispered. One last step.

~

My eyes shot open and I sprang up out of bed. I looked over and seen Jordan laying there, Smiling in his sleep. God that was fucking scary. Would I really kill myself if he left? I love him so much. I laid back down and tried to fall asleep again.

I got up after multiple failed attempts of falling asleep. I need to talk to someone. Who would be awake?

I walk down the hall and knock on Vic's door.

"Who the hell? It's four o'clock in the morning." Kellin whined from the other side of the door.

"Evidently it's important! Or else they wouldn't wake your Whiney ass up!" Vic said shuffling toward the door. He opened the door and turned around. "It's Tony."

"What's wrong Tone?" He asked and rubbed his eyes.

"I just had a terrible dream...I can't sleep..I need someone to talk to.." I rubbed the back of my neck.

"It's fine Tony, lets go downstairs. I wouldn't want to wake the diva."

"Fuck off Fuentes." Kellin growled

"I love you too baby." Vic walked over and kissed his forehead.

We walked downstairs and sat at the kitchen table.

"Vic, I had a terrible dream, I ha a dream that Jordan left me right before our wedding. He just told me he didn't love me anymore and walked away. And I walked over to the cliff and screamed at god. And then I walked off the cliff. Would I really kill myself if he left? Would he leave? Vic, I'm so damn nervous."

"Tony, everything is going to be fine. Jordan is head over heels in love with you. He's not going to leave you, and I wouldn't let you walk off of a cliff."

"I'm so nervous Vic, not even just about that. We want to adopt, what if our kids grow up and get made fun of for having two dads? What if we lose fans because I'm marrying a man? What if he leaves me because of fangirl hate? I can lose him Vic. I can't imagine a day without him by my side."

"Don't worry about our fans ok? If they are true fans they will love us no matter what. And you and Jordan have been together almost two years I'm pretty sure he can handle fangirl hate. You aren't going to lose him Tone."

"Thanks Vic. I'm sorry I'm such a mess, I'm just so nervous. I don't know how to handle this whole marriage and wedding. I've never been so damn nervous in my life."

"It will all be just fine Tony, you just have to calm down."

"I can't calm down Vic, I don't want our marriage to end up like so many others. What if we get married and we argue all the time? What if we fall apart?" By this time I was crying.

Vic came over and wrapped me in a hug. He's Such a good friend.

"You won't fall apart, you guys only fight because you are both stressed out. It's normal for couples to argue. Hell even Kellin and I fight from time to time. He's an asshole, but I wouldn't trade him for the world. Now come on Turtle, lets get back to our men." God, that nickname. Let me explain, when I was younger I loved turtles, because of the ninja turtles. So now, I am known and tony the turtle. I just laughed, and walked with him back upstairs.

"Good ni-er- morning Vic."

"Good morning to you too Turtle."

I wrapped him in a tight hug before opened his door.

"Thank you."

"You're welcome." He kissed my cheek and walked in his room. I love how loving this whole family is.

I walked into my room and laid down next to Jordan. I can't believe that tomorrow he will be my husband. He opened his eyes and smiled.

"Where did you go baby? I woke up and you weren't here?" He kissed me lightly.

"I was talking to Vic, no big deal babe. I'm just kinda nervous. About the wedding and everything."

"Everything is gonna be ok Turtle. I promise. Go back to sleep. I love you." He cuddled up next to me and I pulled him close.

"I love you too Jord." I was freaking out for no reason. He's not going to leave me. I'm Such a spaz.