I was in Seth's locker room, pacing back and forth. Today I will be telling him how I feel and honestly, I was scared shitless to see how he felt. What if he rejected me? What if he thinks I'm just, "okay."
The more I thought, the more nervous I got. My worst fear is being rejected, but the fear gets bigger when it involves one of my best friends. Of course I liked him and wanted a relationship, but would he be willing to want it to?
Seth's match was almost over and I knew that in just a couple minutes he would be walking through that locker room door. I needs to calm myself quickly, so I just started to breathe slowly. As soon as I opened my eyes, there he was standing directly in front of me.
All I could do was just smile.
"Well I wasn't expecting you to be here Noah, but I like the company." He laughed a bit.
I shrugged, "Just thought I would come congratulate you on your win."
God, why was I procrastinating to tell him. I just need to tell him straight up.
"Uh, Seth.. Could I tell you something?" I asked, my voice shaking from how nervous I was.
He smiled, "Well, of course you can tell me anything.
Seth sat beside me and draped his arm around my shoulders in a comforting way.
I turned to him, looking him directly in his eyes.
"I like you, like, a lot." I said as I let out a breath.
I looked at Noah in shock.
She liked me?
Yeah, I was happy. Hell I was ecstatic. My feelings were definitely mutual towards her.
"Are you not gonna say anything, or..?" She said looking down at her hands.
I thought about what I was gonna say for a little bit longer.
"Noah, I can't be with you. You're my best friend and I'm, uh I'm talking to another girl."
My heart broke in two when I saw her face go from that big bright happy smile to such a sad face that I can't even begin to describe. I knew that I should've just been honest with her, but I can't. I can't date her, just to break her heart even more than it already was. She was so fragile and I don't wanna be the man who shatters her heart so, what better way of protecting her than lying about things, right.